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- I have just spend two hours listening to her sleep, it's beautiful

*Comments ok, PM me* -I say that I want her to work her marriage out but I secretly want it to break down completely and she knows that. I also know she will never leave him no matter how bad things get, it hurts to be in love with her. -I hate it when men touch me unless they are very close friends...

I dream of what I can't have...still it's a nice dream and one thats wonderful....not gonna share it thought...but yes I dream of my ideal future family.

I wish I could hold her in my arms again and look into her eyes when I tell her I love her.

I wish I didn't have to say goodbyes.

I get round the swimsiut problem by wearing boys swimming shorts over my costume, you know, some of the longer ones that cover the areas I have sied. For arm scars have you considered wearing a rash guard? surfers wear them all the time, okay you get one of two odd looks when you first arrive but as...

Night time, when it's quiet and everyoen is in bed becomes my time, and when everyone else is asleep I can pretend they don't exist and so feel less guilty about things. Usually 11-2...as thjats when I'm tryign to go to sleep..if I'm still awake at 2 I give up and get back up again.

...life sucks...need to cry but sat in brothers room so can't.....

M: Get out of my life, ok, I'm an adult, if I want your advice or help I will ask you for it..I wuill trust me enough to let me go!..and for petes sake I'd wish you'd care rather than interfere, we don't have conversations, you just quiz me. It's nomral for me not to want to tell you every details, ...

These are great, I really use the squeezing ice cubes idea, but I add to it. I get a big bucket, lock myself in the bathroom and sit facing the bath. I them squeeze the ice cubes and if it hurts to much or not enoguh I then throw them at the wall behind the bath and tehy smash and shatter, tis very ...