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Hiya Pea It wouldn't be the right thing for me for sure. I don't know if theyre on the right track about there being a pleasure response to SI. For me, SI suppresses my emotions, I *become* numb and use it to stay numb and feel in control. I certainly don't need meds to make me more so. But maybe it...

I promised myself that I could if I needed to, but that I really had to need to. I had everything that I needed with me. But I didn't feel as bad as the previous night when I did, so I didn't do it this time. It comes down to that for me, I need that promise for myself. I need to know I can if I wan...

fragile, hurting, terrified and not in control
unloved, unlovable, broken
waiting

theres not a lot i can do besides hold on