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because im ill because it scars because its not just me im hurting because of the comments because i force people away because they cant deal with my pain because im out of controll because im scared because i feel weak because i hate that this SI addiction owns me because i hate that i have to carr...

something that usally helps me is going inside me head. it sounds strange, but i will explain. i block out all my thoughts and get into kinda a medetiting trance then i let my body go. i have a special place i always go to. first im walking in a big field with dark blue grass and thorny black rosses...