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:blkstar: i want to prove to my few friends that i will be alive tomorrow. :blkstar: i want to see what my future holds :blkstar: i want to stop thinking i need to be checked into a mental hospital :blkstar: i need to prove to myself that im better then this and that i need to see a different day.

last night i drawed with crayons out of my emergency box. i didnt think i would need it so soon, but coloring and listening to music LOUD MUSIC with headphones worked for me.

My biggest aint-SIing is my old childhood toys. Magnets and beads, seaquins and kits, arts and crafts. generally things i can do alone. also i think sitting in a room all alone with the door blocked off, and listening to loud rock music while writing poetry, or reading a magazine is good. when worst...

amy- your a doll and you will make the best psycatrist. mila- stop kicking me and making fun of me and my life for- crying out loud!!! ill date whoever i want and ill do whatever i want!!! if u dont wanna hang out then dont invite me!!! han- helping in ways that cant be described. jeff- i dont hate ...