bus

1. how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel shame. I will feel as if I have betrayed my recovery and hurt my inner child. I will feel disgusted with myself. I will question even more if I have the ability to make it through graduate school. I will feel the endorphin ru...

hmmmm... who would know for sure (without my having to bother deb about it.) Technically, "archive" implies that they can be retrieved, and if there is any way to do this, it would be insanely helpful... sorry to be a nuisance, but there is one thing in particular I really am feeling the need to hav...

Sorry to ask... It's just that I am doing some insanely rough work these days in therapy and there are a few very old posts that I would really like to retrieve. I have looked in my post history & it doesn't go back far enough to get them. Also, newer posts that were linked into my place thread but ...

I am proud of myself for studying even though it is the farthest thing from my mind right now.

I am proud that I havn't given into the impulses to hurt myself.

Why do you visit before and after? I visit because reading what others have posted or posting if I need to helps. because watching other people work through what was going on at a really rough time and hearing how they are able to articulate what was happening is helpful. What do you get out of it? ...

*sends calm thoughts your way* I hope that you were able to get through things safely. It is awful when, just as we are trying to make difficult changes in our lives, something happens to make that change even more difficult or complicated. I am sorry that you were feeling like you didn't have a sup...

eek... sorry I've lost all sense of time. I thought you posted this tonight.

so, changing this since I just realized that today is not the 14th, are there things moving foward that you have (or can put) in place to help support you in case you are in this place again?

Firstly, I just wanted to say that I'm glad you were able to post and try to talk through some of your feelings before you tried to hurt yourself. I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. It seems like you are really struggling to not hurt yourself, but you also seem to feel that hurting yourself will tak...

It's really cool that you chose to write out what happened the other day in order to try to examine it. I hope that it has helped some. Have I been here before? Yes, but not in a number of years. I use to hurt myself whenever I felt this way. I forgot what this was like. It was worse this time becau...

K, I read and just wanted to say that I am sorry that you had such a stressor this past week. It's good that you have been able to sit down and write out some of what was going on. I hope it helped at least a little. In reading what you wrote the thing that kept popping out at me was that you kept s...

Thanks Jo. When I get a moment, I may very well write out those things... am thinking that maybe when I *do* find a new T and trust them enough, that then-- before I even try to talk about the SA stuff, I can just hand them what I've written out-- that way there's no editing myself because they woul...

sheesh, I've been going nuts all day and I just remembered that I had requested access to this forum and it was approved, so I am posting here. I'm actually more okay right now that I was eairler-- was really not okay eairler. I'm posting this because I had already formulated a plan to hurt myself t...

because I knew the feeling would pass but the scars would last.

okay, I can't beleive I forgot these 2, because they're the 2 that help keep me going once it's been a while. - instead of SIing, I do something nice for the part of me that would have hurt. If I have bad scars there already, then I put vitamine e oil on them... if scars are not a concern, I'll usua...

8) okay... first I've gotta say that I *love this question* and can't wait to hear what other people are gonna write-- new 'safe tools' are always sooo excellent! Well, lets see... I've managed to stop twice for about 6 months and then for shorter times as well. Currently I'm down from more than onc...