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I want to be exclusive with you. I don't want anyone else to touch you but me. I don't want anyone else to touch me but you.

Annie Elizibeth wrote:I did actualy try.
But it hurt.
xD

It does that.



Why do you want to stop at the new year? What are your reasons for choosing to quit? Maybe it would help to write them down so you don't feel so deprived and forget why as soon as you reach the date.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? My little sister came home from blockbuster to get a movie. They called because the movie was "R" and Mom said she couldn't get it. My little sister is sixteen. The movie had "language and nudity." Kelly was screaming and, when...

mkay, first before. i'm going to go up to my room and smoke two bowls right after i post this. this is not a SI before; this is a weed before. why do i want to smoke right now? i got accepted to the college of my choice--salem college--but i only got an 8,000 dollar scholarship. i'm not sure if that...

Haha, I was just starting off. I'm waiting till I get a urge to start posting...and waiting till I get an "AFTER" to create an after thread. I just knew I wouldn't feel like making the preliminary post if I was really upset...so I probably wouldn't have bothered at all. You can say that you think th...

I am creating two threads on b&a. In one, I want to keep a record of all my "before"s. In the other, I want to keep a record of all my "after"s. I am not ready to stop self-injury. I want to force myself to analyze every urge, however, in order to get a better grip on myself and my emotions. Challen...

and are they doing it? i sent in a pic about half a year ago and besides the customary email, i haven't heard back.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I don't know. I'll feel better, like I've been punished for being bad. But if I chicken out and don't SI hard enough, I'll feel even worse. I've been reaching this weird crossroads: I'm leaving nasty scars and wounds that take forever to h...

If my blades are dull, I won't SI until I can get new ones. I hate having to use dull blades. I also don't SI if I have to take my blades out of their "case." If I don't have something on hand that I prepared earlier, I won't do it. That said, the rule isn't followed very strictly. If I'm really ups...

I think I'm using this form counterproductivly. I only want to post about afters, not ever before. I want to assess my emotions after I've dealt with them the way I want to. I'm not sure I want to stop SI so much as I want to stop feeling like shit. I think that needs to be said before I answer thes...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It'll allivate the feelings in my head that are making it impossible to focus on anything but self-injury right now. By doing that, I'll be able to finish my work and not want to self-injure later, angry that I couldn't do it. what will hur...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. *nods* see, i take care of it now. i've started taking care of all of them since i got a few infections. what had happened just before? I cut earlier--about 3:10 in the morning. Then I got up around 1:00 pm and showere...

I have an internet addiction. No joke. I have a huge Chem final tomorrow. Today I've been online and I've slept.

I tried to study...but...

It didn't work out. Hahaha. I have no idea how NOT to be online.

Its hard to feel like you can't be helped. But things really don't have to stay as they are now. Change is hard, but possible. People say that over and over again. I hear the same psychobabble over and over again...and it just doesn't make much sense to me anymore. Like you tell me I just feel like...

Are you wanting to work on your self harm or the underlying issues or is there something else you're trying to get at? Sorry. I just-- I can't be like this anymore. I can't do this to myself anymore. I am going to self-destruct if I stay like this. But I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't b...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. No. I don't really care. what had happened just before? I was reading on SI and posted on BUS about why I liked it. Then my debate cases needed to be edited and I felt like a fuck up. what were you thinking and feeling...

SCB: Thank you. Just...thank you. You've listened to me once or twice and I don't think anyone else would have. KCR: Thank you for picking me up. You're really annoying me with your attitude, like you know everything. Luke was fucking spinning on his chair and not working. I was sitting there writin...

I'm sorry I'm not kidding I am hinting at something I don't know what to do I don't want to do this I don't want to lose you I want to stop time and kick myself out of this moment and aksjfalk fgklsjd lkasj fkoasjf klasjfklsaj fklasjfkljaslfkjaskfljasfkljslkfjsaklfj asklfjklas jfklasfklsafjksalfjkls...

Twitter Mouse usually sends an e-mail/pm to you when she adds it. She's good like that.

Does anyone know if those will ever be back up?