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when did all of the backgrounds get deleted? I'm not too fond of the four that are now offered. I was using quidditch (I think) -the purple one. Is there any chance that it will be brought back? Or am I just going to have to adjust to one of these?

-darkrose

ya, words are what I do when "normal" SI doesn't do it anymore. I'm not sure how (or if) I've stopped but I guess writing it on paper a zillion or so times would probably lessen the urge to write it on yourself...or maybe using a red marker or pen on your body instead...well those are my suggestions...

ya! Swimming is very.....freeing. It's just you and the water...you don't have to worry about other people or trying to be happy...you just...swim.
Thank you for posting!

-darkrose

I feel like that. Whenever I look at my cuts I'll think "oh, that looks horrible...I should stop." then that night I'll end up cutting anywayz...and I'll be thinking "why bother trying to stop? No one will notice anyways! and what would I do instead? Fester it all inside? I mean, coping techniques o...

Some of those I've used (like the elastic band and the red marker, music, and journals) but I really liked the sound of the 5,4,3,2,1 one. I think that I'll try that sometime!! Thanx for the suggestion!

-darkrose

ya, I can totally relate to everything being worse at night....and the nights go sooooo slow!! I think it's because there's nothing to do at night but lay in your bed and think about everything that we try to avoid thinking about during the day...there's just nothing to distract us! It bites! PM if ...

Well...at least you'd be doing something that would help you....I mean you'd know the material better that way wouldn't you?! lol!

-darkrose

well sometimes when you feel guilty it isn't really your fault...so just reminding yourself that it isn't your fault would help...

-darkrose

I wish... :star: I was happy :star: I could tell people how I really feel :star: People would care when I DID tell them things :star: I wasn't invisible :star: I will become successful :star: I'll be happy :star: I wish I had self-control :star: I wish I could be everything I want to be -darkrose

hmmm...well I guess I'd bring: :star: my journal and a pen (or does that count as 2? w/e) :star: CD player (with CDs) :star: a camera (to waste time and distract myself) :star: my computer (so I can keep coming on BUS) :star: a scary book (or a whole stack of them!) so maybe that's a few more than 5...

well I don't know how well my coping techniques are for other people but at night it helps me to read a scary book....not other kinds, just scary. Writing also helps me....writing letters to people (you know the kind that you'll never send). And singing along to music....but that is hard to do when ...

I like those...they are really helpful...sometimes I use some of those.

The one where you mentioned singing a song about how you are feeling reminded me that I used to do that when I was younger...like 5 or 6...when I didn't care about my bad singing voice! lol!
Thanx for reminding me!

-darkrose

The first time that I cut was a little more than a year and a half ago. My mom had found lump on her neck and had to go have it tested. Her doctor had told her that there was a 75% chance that it was cancerous. The day I cut was the day that she told me about the 75% chance. I was afraid and I wasn'...

I wish... :star: I was happy :star: I don't lie about how I'm feeling :star: I could talk to my friends :star: that they'd talk to me :star: mom didn't make me feel guilty :star: dad and I were closer :star: My siblings will never have to find out that I SI :star: That I'll always have at least one ...

It would be fine to call him if you feel that you need to! He cares about you and wants to help you. Let him help you...he'll feel better and so will you!
good luck!

-darkrose

I was going to suggest stage make-up...it stays on pretty well! Congrats at getting the lead!

-darkrose

Yeah...doing quizes and such is a good way to distract myself...plus it's just a good way to waste time on the interent! lol! I'm going to check out all of those links...thatx for posting!

-darkrose

That is a pretty good idea...that way you HAVE to look at all the happy things...I mean if you really wanted to SI you still could....but it is a good idea because if you didn't really want to SI then you would see these things and stop and look. You're pretty smart!

-darkrose

ya! they have little bells inside and they make noise when they are rolled...they are cool...very helpful indeed!

-darkrose

I know how you feel. I sometimes get like that. Alll of a sudden nothing is important and everything seems.....fake. It's weird and I don't know why we get like that! it would be a good thing to ask someone who would actually know!

-darkrose