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H- I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING. I NEED YOU SO MUCH! please try to understand that your the reason i can get up everyday...please dont leave me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your so awsome

P L E A S E D O N T L E A V E M E

i cried for so long in the bathroom at school today... arrr im so ashamed...
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uuhh im so awful

H- im sorry. i dont mean to be such a pain. you do still care about me right? thats really all im hanging on to right now. your really all i have. i dont know what to do anymore. not that i ever did. i feel like such crap. :bawl: i love you so much. why dont you get that your everything to me? WORLD...

i wish i was different i wish i was gone i wish i could eat w/o fealing sick i wish i could say what i mean i wish school was easy for me i wish i could be there for other people i wish i wasnt scared of being around people i wish i wasnt so easily triggered i wish i was good at somthing i wish i di...

H- your the reason i can get up everyday. i love you. M- hummm... K- fuck i dunno! S- die. G- go the fuck away. B- stop calling me! i dont care! go back to your high wanna-be-punk life and dont come back. S- will you just accept the fact that your just like all the rich little marin kids? SELF- grow...

there arent any faces that show how pathetic i look. :oops: :oops: :oops: *sob* :oops: :oops: :oops: :bawl: :bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl: :bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl: :bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl: :bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl::bawl: :bawl::bawl::bawl::b...

hf- do you really care about me anymore? i fucking love you dude! why dont you get that all i want is to be better for you! theres so much i wanted (needed) to tell you today. but i couldnt. because i dont think you care. i dont even know. i always thought you'd be there when no one else was, that y...

mfm- i dont know what your tryin to pull... bein all nice to me and all.... im not gonna forget what you did to me. but i am sry for being such a bitch. sg- i DO NOT want to go through another year with you. i really hate you. FUCK YOU! ja- why wont you talk to me? you were always there last year......

ive really lost it.

just... i dont even know anymore. :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: ...

PARENTS- look im sorry. i am trying. im not diseased. PEOPLE FRM M.H.S.- i cut. i hate you all. your so stuck up in your stupid rich familes that give you whatever the fuck you want. i hope i never have to see any of you ever again. and no i was never "ok" but like i would say anything to you. PEOPL...

* i dont want to feel insane all the time. * i dont want to be scared of myself and everything else. * i want to be able to be around *the* objects and people talking about su/si with out freaking out. * i want to be there for my friend. * i dont want to make up excuses anymore. * the iching does su...

PARENTS: i just cant stand to be touched by you! ok! i know it must be hard finding out about my si but please, just treat me normal! stop freaking out at every little thing i do or say! JESS: where the fuck are you? EVERYONE AT MHS: no, im not just a lil sad. im fucking depressed, yeah.. ive tryed ...

ya... im back again.... :lol: H: you will never know how much you help me. thanks for distracting me (thats for today) and always being there no matter what. love ya. B: i dont want to hear about MHS anymore. im trying to forget about it, and yes, about HIM. i cant take that now. oh yea, by the way,...

im so scared.. man.. here i go again..

i feel so horrible:bawl:

TERRIFED! SCARED TO DEATH! MUST CRY: :blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn: :blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn::blfrwn: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bsad: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl: :bawl:...

PARENTS: im depressed, i cut, im sorry most of this is not your fault, stop wanting me to change. i want help. H: your wonderful. what whould i do with out you? why havent you left me? you dont deserve this. but you never gave up on me. im sorry im not much help to you when you need it. try to under...

*hands out tissue boxes*
*always crying*