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Mmm... its haunting me too

I can't cry. But I am crying inside. So I think I'll sit here a while

Still hot and sticky! A little triggery

Hot, sticky, tired, but ok

For her to be prepared to listen. For her not to judge me for how I'm feeling, or to be shocked that I'm thinking of SIing, but just to accept it. To ask me what I'd like her to do right then, whether I'd like company or a hug or whatever. To feel that she's not gonna try to stop me if I ultimately ...

Maybe take something comforting with you from home?

Take care, Andi

~pms ok~

I looked at my arm this morning and I know its just gonna be a matter of time before my parents catch me. I just want to hide away. I'm so scared about what'll happen when they realise I'm still SIing

Hey, I hope you made it through and you're ok. i don't wanna feel like i'm alone anymore. hurting myself may help for a little while Why do you think hurting yourself makes you feel less lonely? What other things could you do that help make you feel less alone? Would doing something like collecting ...

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I wish I could SI whenever I want, and not feel guilty

Sometimes I want to kill myself just so I don't have to face choices any more


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I was so sure I'd already done this years back, but it appears not... What motivates you to try a coping thing instead of si'ing? Wanting to work with other people who SI in the future - I want to be able to show them that it is possible to stop If you had to move twice to cope i.e. move your body, ...

Wow I'd almost forgotten about SHACA! Though I've not blamed my cat since joining, and she's now gone to kitty heaven, so can't be blamed again, alas!

We should resurrect the T-shirt idea...

Andi

Do I need to hurt myself? NO Thats good to hear :D I hope you manage to make it through this. It looks like you have a few good ideas to try instead of SI. Can you treat yourself in some special way to try to take your mind off thinking about your bf's ex? Or maybe try to write down all of the thin...

Koru, sorry this has gone without a reply for so long. I hope you got your work done, the funeral wasn't too bad, and that you stayed safe. Whether you did or not, it sounds like it would be a good idea to try and find some more coping strategies that don't depend on whether you can run/exercise or ...

I wish i could teel the people i love the way i feel before it tears me apart and i can't speak about it without crying or yelling. I wish I could walk away from problems before I exaserbate them...(make them worse)(i don't thinks thats spelt right...i just wanted to use a big wod...sorry. lol) Hav...

Well, I've had an ok upbringing I guess - my mum got pregnant accidently when she was 20, so she married my dad, and i was born. We've lived in the same house most of my life, my parents are still together, I was bullied a bit at school but no real abuse. I've always been the high-flyer, the one who...

Hey, thanks for the reply. You know, it does make it easier just knowing someone cares, eh? I went and did what you suggested, though I couldn't come up with much - heres what I put: What do I gain I get the (free) 'high' from the endorphins etc, which is a feeling I love. They should heal fine, wit...

I wish I had more/worse ones, because I feel that would show better the shit I've been through (I know thats twisted thinking, but you know what I mean) But at the same time I hate other people seeing them. It makes me so uncomfortable when people do see them. But I don't wish I didn't have them, th...

Yup, try to find something to wear over it, and pull the 'sensitive skin' stunt. If you go with the make up make sure you practice before, so you know how it looks and that you'll be happy with the result.

Take care, Andi

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. - yup what had happened just before? - I've had a rough few days - trying to adjust to being back under my parents' roof after a year, them having found out that I SI'd in the past, that 2 close friends are a lot deeper...

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- I still love him so much it hurts. 6 months since I last saw him. And he doesn't know

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