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I want to ask the doctor to really help me, not just medicate me as if i have an infection or something. i want to talk to a psychiatric nurse but not the one that i nearly punched in the face for saying "well you've got your whole life ahead of you;you'l be fine"!!! i want you so stop treating me l...

feeling restless but have no motivation or emotional energy to get up and do something.
feeling trapped and wantin desperately to runaway.
feeling alone and scared of going to the doctors in the morning.
feeling light headed from the stupid medication.

I'm worried i'll always feel like this and I'll never be really happy, just trapped in a perpetuating circle of feeling bad, getting help, feeling a bit better, stop getting help and getting worse again!!

I'm also worried that the people who help me will get sick of my circle and stop helping me.