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Fuck Fuck FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I hate non-SI-urgey times the most, because when shit hurts THAT much but I've decided that SI isn't an option at the time, then I'm out, totally, utterly OUT, of options.

I get so effing SCARED of nothing; this is one of the hardest things to swallow about myself.

But there ARE things to be scared of this time, except I'm still too weak to latch my mind onto them.