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Feeling hopeless ...


I will talk to my mom

"this is not my life it's just a fond farewell to a friend it's not what i'm like it's just a fond farewell to a friend who couldn't get things right fond farewell to a friend i can deal with some psychic pain if it'll slow down my higher brain veins full of disappearing ink vomiting in the kitchen ...

I'm 4 months clean from drugs. But, shoot, I have been really struggling with not drinking. All I can think of is going to that liquor store and getting some and getting drunk. Whew...trying to play the tape forward....

my sadness would improve if i could find someone who understands

--I wish I could tell you how much I hurt, but I can't bring myself to confront you on the way you treated me when I was younger. You have hurt me so much. I dont' know what else to say....