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i have to remember that i am not broken and that i am worthy of love and respect.

i'm proud of myself today because...

i am happy.
i went to the movies with a new friend.
i saw a semi-scary movie without freaking out.
i bought yet another book.

you said it. that's how i feel, it's like if i lose SI, what do i have to turn to? I'm still afraid to turn to those people/things other than SI to cope just like i've always been. that's why i turned to SI in the first place.
thanks,
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thanks for that perspective...i'm the eternal pessimist. ha
i know it takes more to si than to cope by other means...i just don't know if i wanna stop, and that makes me feel really bad inside, but it feels like i just can't cope any other way.

thanks EP.
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how do i cope when SI's all i can think about? what do you do if you want to cope, but then you don't? does that make sense? i mean maybe i don't want to cope another way...i don't know. i don't know if i see SI as a way i'm "coping". to me, coping means you're doing something good doesn't it? I don...

okay, i love Ellen Hopkins' books, and i just bought Impulse, i know it is about SI and SU, but i didn't figure it would be so triggering for me...i was wrong.

Impulse by Ellen Hopkins-SI & SU

Crank and Glass by her are good books though!*
*drug use/drug abuse

I'm glad that you didn't go through with it even though you were really stressed out.


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Seal - Love's Divine Then the rainstorm came, over me And I felt my spirit break I had lost all of my, belief you see And realized my mistake But time threw a prayer, to me And all around me, became still I need love, loves divine Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind Give me love, love i...

numb. i hate this feeling.

i guess i'm gonna go run errands cuz i slept all day and gotta go do it before all the businesses close. argh. i just wanna sit and SI...but i'm gonna go do my errands instead. and then maybe come home and read or watch tv or clean...i'm rambling.

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I'm happy for you!

thank you for this post hun. It helped me realize that i need to remember ALL of those things too.

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*sits with you* i just wanted to say that i'm reading and i care. i can totally relate to everything you just said. I si'd yesterday too after a while. i was so mad at myself that i didn't even want to post in B&A. hope you get to feeling better hun! *lots of hugs* :bluestar: :cystar: :dkpurpstar: <...

i'm proud of myself today because...

i made a new friend.

i texted a girl who i went to school with who i figured probably SI'd too. She said she still does and doesn't mind if we meet and talk about stuff. that makes me feel better.

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Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it would make me feel less frustrated, and maybe make the stupid urges go away. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? wha...

i'm on day 4, i just saw a new therapist and i don't want to let him down...and because reading makes me feel better than SI right now, so i'll take it!

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I'm proud of myself today because... :lblstar: When I couldn't sleep last night because all I could think about was SI, I went to sleep and never acted on it :lgrnstar: : I bought a new book today (getting new books makes me happy) :lpurpstar: I drove through the busy part of town twice today, and d...

reallllllllllyyyyyy urgy/frustrated......i can't get my leg to stop shaking....i guess it's good tho cuz it's keeping me from SI-ing right now.

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I know that whenever I'm feeling really down, listening to music sometimes helps...for some people listening to up beat music when you're sad seems to help...for me, i listen to slower, more soothing music that's sorta sentimental to me or tells a story in the song that i feel i can relate to at tha...

hi, i just wanted to let you know that the day i really started thinking about SH, i woke up feeling totally numb, like i didn't have the ability to be sad or happy, or anything really. A friend of mine died a few years ago and it was something so sudden, i was shocked just like you said, so i cried...