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it went pretty well actually. I did call the on call for my mental health providers too and that helped because the woman who was on call has talked to me in the past and she was saying how much I have improved in the one year I have been with them. That made me think, "is this the new me getting st...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it will probably just make the situation worse. I want to hurt myself because of something my girlfriend is going through and she looses trust in me every time I self harm what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take a...

I am proud of myself today because I cleaned the heck out of my apartment!

triggered, scared, and starting to go into flashbacks.

I didn't have a complete meltdown when I realized that I am going to run out of meds in a couple of days and I can't get to my provider.

okay, I'll remember that for next time!

there are many spam messages in Coping right now, dated April 30, all around 3:30am ish. Just thought I'd led you know!

i am... confused lonely urgy depressed worried angry i am not... tired (it's 3:49 am right now) able to express my needs just a roller coaster of emotions that is called borderline personality disorder i feel... like si-ing like I should do the right thing even though it's REALLY hard as bad as I di...

scared. Very scared. Alone. Angry. Depressed. Anxious.

a dear friend reminded me how much he cared about me and how he hates to see me in that state.

I went the whole day without dwelling on past relationships

my feelings of anxiety would improve if I wasn't afraid of taking my meds.

I want to be a devout Christian and a strong member of my church but they believe that my gender expression and sexual orientation are evil.

I told my T about this list and I printed it out for her and now she uses it. She also has recommended the board to some of her clients. I love this list, I keep a copy on my computer, a printed out copy in my planner, and one in my overnight bag so I always have access to it even when I don't have ...

You Are More ------Tenth Avenue North There's a girl in the corner With tear stains on her eyes From the places she's wandered And the shame she can't hide She says, "How did I get here? I'm not who I once was. And I'm crippled by the fear That I've fallen too far to love" But don't you know who you...

depressed and encouraged at the same time. My mom died three years ago today and I am depressed that i lost her but encouraged that I haven't lost it completely.

alone in a room full of people
depressed
urgy
barely holding on

I need to cry over so many things right now, and when I begin, I always stop myself.