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I Am; A stupid girl, who does stupid things I Am Not; Going to lie about it, going to make excuses I Feel; Better, calmer, confused, lost I Want; To know how to tell him, to sleep I Need; A way out, a decent therapist I Have; A bed, a boyfriend who loved me entirely more than I deserve I Love; My Bo...

*LA* * * * * * You stupid fucking know it all bitch, how dare you continue to judge me and try to control MY fucking life? YOU moved away, 3 fucking hours away, 2 MONTHS AGO, and haven't contacted me since, and yet you are STILL talking shit about me behind my back. You're supposed to be my SISTER, ...

Serene. Unusually happy. Content. Like warm fuzzies, and hugs and sunshine XD And confused as to why!

You know what? Screw YOU! You ungrateful little bitch. I was just trying to be NICE, and you fucking have the balls to go off on ME. We were txting ALL FUCKING DAY, and you never said a word about not telling anyone else, and all I do is say I'm thinking about him and you have the NERVE to talk back...

**LA** :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: :evil: WHAT the FUCKING HELL??? WHO DOES THAT? SERIOUSLY?? MEN SUCK. They never fucking grow up! We had an awesome night, you add me on FB, don't call. Don't call. Don't call. I message you, and okay I get it, you don't go online often, but I KNOW YOU...

>Alone >Scared >Suicidal >Exhausted >Awake >Annoyed >Like the system has failed me >Like the, like, crisis centre personnel should, like, have, um... more, like training so they ummm... like, do something to, like, help you, and not just, like ask you repeatedly what they can, like, do for you > Tha...

Why have you never taken my side? Even now when you know I SI and am depressed, you still won't ever defend me. You're my mother for god's sake. Does that mean nothing to you? And you, I wish you would just call me. We had an amazing night, or at least I did, and I thought you did too, and I want to...

My GOD I HATE my family!!! Sister acts like the sweet, perfect mature one whenever Mom is around, so naturally Mom always takes her side in EVERYTHING! I'm always the fucking bad guy, but the minute Mom leaves, I get bitched at, cussed out, belittled and every other form of verbal/mental abuse my co...

THAT STUPID STUPID GUY!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DID YOU MAKE ME FALL FOR YOU?!?!!?!?!

AAAJFSJKDJKSFJKLJDF J FEJKAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Not really helping, but a good idea none the less.

*lang* *si* *su* ... like a complete idiot ... like getting out a tool ... slightly suicidal, but more than normal ... like I might finally be able to sleep, even though I have to get up in 4 hours ... like a whore ... like I have rarely hated myself or been as disgusted with myself as much as I am ...