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Trig *SI* *Self Hate* * * * * * * * * * * Dear Self [that isn't really me], Please go away, go away and let me be me. Please stop making me do these things I know I shouldn't do. Please stop distorting my view of reality. Please let me sleep with out fearing that in the morning I won't have the will...

Right now I feel:
frustration
sadness
homesickness[even though I'm 'home']
hopelessness
insecurity
isolation
loneliness
unhappiness
depression
anxiety
nervousness
uneasiness
overwhelmed
fragility
boredom
fidgety

Even though I push everyone away...
.............all I want is for someone to say.............
....."I will never let you go".....

I came here urgey and now I don't even know why I was...I didn't even try any of 'em. Just read this list...wow...it's such a list...just...