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by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sun Nov 22, 2009 6:47 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

i'm not afraid of cutting too deep anymore...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Tue Nov 17, 2009 11:44 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Fuck you. How dare you fucking yell at her, she didn't do a damn thing wrong. How dare you fucking lie about it afterwords. You're fucking 30-something! She's 11 ! God-fucking-dammit! She fucking ran away, and you didn't fucking do anything about it. You just stood there like the ass you are, while ...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Mon Nov 02, 2009 4:41 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

do you know how fucked up this is? that you expose me to your second-hand smoke for my whole life, then you try to change and you stop smoking around me. So you still get your ciggs and I'M the one going through fucking withdrawal! I know you're trying to fucking make it better, but goddammit! I do...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sat Oct 24, 2009 5:37 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

I'm such a liar...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Fri Oct 23, 2009 8:04 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: place 2 vent=hopefully to get what you need
Replies: 5
Views: 528

Re: place 2 vent=hopefully to get what you need

thank you for the move. A letter to Steph's daddy * * * * * * * How could you not tell me I have a four-year-old half brother? I mean really? I'm your fucking daughter! You fucking have my email. I check it every fucking day. Why does he get the father that I never had? Why does he get your love? IT...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Wed Oct 21, 2009 2:35 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

How could you not tell me I have a four-year-old half brother? I mean really? I'm your fucking daughter! You fucking have my email. I check it every fucking day. Why does he get the father that I never had? Why does he get your love? IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT THAT YOU "WEREN'T READY" FOR A KID WHEN ...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sun Oct 18, 2009 10:15 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: place 2 vent=hopefully to get what you need
Replies: 5
Views: 528

Re: place 2 vent=hopefully to get what you need

...I'm unsure of this thread...it doesn't seem like the fluffy, open, safe type of thing that is the nest...But I can see it being helpful...just maybe not in the nest?
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Thu Oct 15, 2009 9:52 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

fatfatfat
i think its my fault that someone is leaving bus...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Mon Oct 12, 2009 8:29 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

i fucking hate this. i'm over xxxlbs for the first time. i hate it. i'm so weak. i should only weigh xxlbs and i know it. i don't care if it's healthy or not.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Mon Oct 12, 2009 8:25 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

i weight myself everyday now, and if i gain even a tiny bit, i don't eat that day.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Fri Oct 09, 2009 11:29 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

It's not like I fucking mean to not sleep, stop fucking acting like I'm not fucking laying there trying to figure out if there's a goddamn reason to fucking get out of bed! You fucking screaming at me isn't fucking helping!
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sat Sep 26, 2009 6:24 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

si * * * * * * * i found a single-edge blade...i'm sorta excited about going back home so i can use it...but at least i have enough willpower not to use it at my gramma's...but i've never planned before...and the blade is so sharp...i can't wait to see how deep it goes and that scares me so fucking ...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sun Sep 20, 2009 12:00 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

every moment I have this voice in my head that just yells at me and points out my flaws all day. The voice in my head that stands up to the yelling one also hates me. I think I'm insane.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Mon Sep 14, 2009 4:56 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

Please don't read...

, why. why would you even do that. i was fine until your name came up, C. i'm so scared. i'm so scared. i'm most scared of the possibility that they're right, and that by coming here i've sealed my fate. that i'm never going to get better. i'm so scared. i really am.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sun Sep 13, 2009 7:57 am
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

I cut today.
I didn't even try to stop myself.
I'm so scared...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:32 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

i am worried, worthless, wretched, wasteful, weak, unsure, upset, troubled, truculent, typical, undesirable, timid, tired, thoughtless, tense, terrible, strange, squeamish, sneaky, sad, scary, secretive, selfish, quarrelsome, repulsive, panicky, pathetic, obnoxious, nervous, mean, lazy, lonely, jit...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Thu Sep 10, 2009 10:43 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

I b/p once...and I hate that it made me feel better.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Thu Sep 03, 2009 8:21 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
Replies: 4840
Views: 186222

Re: Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

The voice in my head that stands up for me makes me feel even worse that ~I can't stand up to ~myself. Even though I know that voice is me...but if I accepted that the voice that stands up for me is me, that would make the voice that puts me down also me.
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Thu Aug 27, 2009 4:26 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]
Replies: 1638
Views: 77618

Re: Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

I'm not sure if I want to stop anymore. I'm not even sure I ever did...I feel so much better when I'm bleeding...
by xXelmoscaresmeXx
Sun Jul 26, 2009 10:38 pm
Forum: coping
Topic: Coping resources - An excellent first read for all
Replies: 6
Views: 8380

Re: Coping resources - An excellent first read for all

(In BBcode) Statement of Purpose This forum; Coping [Read] Questions to answer Kharre's questions and Listening to urges questions (Both of these sets of questions can also be found on Before and after , where you can get feedback on your answers and work through them.) Coping Patch Coping Questionn...