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i miss you. i miss you so fucking much. i miss talking, and just sitting next to you i miss listening to you joking around with our friends in the art room. i miss the way you'd make sure that i was right next to you i miss the way you hugged me. and it still fucking hurts. i miss you. please, can'...

I'm not fucking BULIMIC!
I do NOT BINGE!
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Purging does not equal bulimia!
STOP GOING THROUGH MY SHIT! It's MINE! I gave you my tools, and the band-aids and the rest of the stuff goddammit!
FUCK OFF! I'm 14, being secretive is fucking NORMAL! Wanting privacy is fucking NORMAL!

i like you. alot. god, just please stop avoiding me, ignoring me. hell, at least tell me why! what did i do? monday was awesome, i want to come over again. it was the most content ive felt in the past 3 years. i wasnt bored at all, and we were watching the fucking 4 o' clock news! you made the 4 o' ...

What is your secret? i'm still purging and restricting. and i don't want to stop. Why is it a secret? b/c i need it to be, if someone found out, they'd make me stop. What are your feelings about this secret? i'm ashamed, and paranoid that someone will find out. Why are you telling this secret now? ...

Thirds that idea.

I always go back to read my old secrets.
Sometimes I need to

I love you kimmy.

i don't want to get help. you weren't supposed to find out about my ed. my weren't. i don't wanna talk about it. i don't wanna be 'healthy' i wanna be 'xx'lbs. i want to look sick. i want to be sick. i want people to look at me and be worried, even if they don't know me. i don't want to recover. i ...

NO! Emma! I do NOT fucking want to go to your house today. You fucking hacked my pokemon acccount and wasted 15,000 of MY POINTS (half of my total points) on a pokemon THAT I DON'T EVEN LIKE! Just saying "plz dont b mad" isn't going to make me any less pissed. If I still had your password, I'd fucki...

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I have a pro-ana xanga...and I update it alot...and I love it, even though I know it's wrong...

I didn't "start cutting again"...I never fucking stopped and you never fucking noticed.

What gives me hope?

...buslist.org/phpBB GMH

Daddy--Thank you for bringing the puppy, it made seeing you a lot less awkward...it's funny how one little thing can change years of built up tension.

1--Yes, I forgive you.

2--No, you did not make that up. That is an old internet meme. You do not need to lie to me.

Who do I have a crush on in this school?
...you.

stop, please, please, just stop please, everything is just going going going. And I just need to stop.

E- You're my friend, yes. But I just can't handle having you depend on me. I know that I'll just end up hurting you. G- Don't talk during play rehearsals. You're awesome and funny, and a great friend, but I just can't handle anyone talking backstage. It makes me want to fucking scream. I am sorry th...

I don't want to stop.

92.0...i want to see 80. 80 is perfect.