bus

please forgive me...

i really ought to stop reacting like this everytime it happens.. i really ought to know better

please let me have an opportunity to talk to you this week

whenever I listen to this song, it reminds me of you, and all i want is for you to turn up on my doorstep and give me a hug... it makes me cry, it makes me hurt, but it makes me feel safe because it gives me hope. please.. please when i next see you make me be honest with you. dont let me hide behin...

please please pick up, and please please reply.. and please please dont hate me :/

please reply. and please dont think im stupid.

fuck this hurts

i wish i could see you, and talk to you, you were so kind to me, i suddenly miss you, and i dont know why.... suddenly two weeks seems like such a long time...!

im scared

sometimes, when you seem so happy, i get jelous. i envy your ability to fake a smile, yet hate it at the same time.

im falling apart.. im loosing it.. literally.. cant you see? cant you see that im falling to pieces infront of your very eyes?? im not that good at hiding it, and we both no it.. damn, i wish things were different. then i could go to you for help.. as it is, im falling apart and im having to do it a...

i dont want to let you down. despite everything, i still care bout you. i still care bout what you think of me. i dont talk to you anymore cos im scared of what your reaction will be. i wish i could explain this to you. but i cant. it can never be. i know that.

im so glad it worked
and please dont forget this, i wish i could be more help, but i will do what i can. always. promise.

you. just... urgh. grow up ffs. stop constantly thinking about yourself. your always so immature and fake. everyone sees through your little act. give it up. i cant wait till next week when you have something else to think about. im sick of this attitude, but hey, its ok, lets play happy families. ...

it amazes me that i somehow find the energy to keep going through this.. but i have very little hope for the future, and i feel like its all going to crash down on me any minute. urgh.

im sorry you have to go through this.. i wish i could protect you from her. i feel like its my duty.. and im sorry. just, it will get better. i know how your feeling right now, but its gonna be OK.

so... its true.. its really true..