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strider 151 wrote:i need to run away and live somewhere where i dont hurt anyone by my descisions

no hunni. no you dont. please dont leave....

please. dont judge me.

im hurting. so much. and i dont know how to deal with it. ive never felt so unsecure and scared in my entire life. please help me. show me what to do. cos im nothing. im not even living anymroe.. i cant sustain happiness for more than a few hours. what sort of life is that?? please. take me away. t...

i dont wanna push you into doing something your not up to.

i just care bout you so much

because God will help..
because he isnt worth it.
cos hes hurting you..... even if its unintentional.
cos i need my kimmi bac

look after yourself hun...

im really not OK.

i wish i could make you proud of me.

you can steal my words if yuo want annybelly

im sorry. im sorry im not good enough for you.. im sorry you had kids, but thats yoru desicion. im sorry your life is crap now, and that we arent good enough for you. but tough!!! im you daughter for f* sake. please!!! theres nothing else i can do.. why cant you just accept me for who i am?! do you ...

i am... ~ tired ~ uspet ~ pathetic ~ worthless ~ selfish i am not... ~ okay ~ happy ~ a good little girl ~ gonna tell you what happened i feel... ~ stupid ~ sad ~ confused ~ like shit ~ broken i want... ~ out ~ bed ~ numbness ~ things to be okay ~ my life back i need... ~ love ~ praise ~ positive a...

i knew how much it would hurt those i love

*ed*




i want to be skinny.
i hate my body.
i wish i was beautiful.
cos if i was beautiful it would solve all my problems.
and i would be more worthy.
i want to make my loved ones proud.
i want to show them i can be beautiful.
i just wish there was an easier way than this to go about it.

im shit scared....

oh kimmi.........

i love you.

and im listening.

will talk more tomorrow hun...