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Incredibly stressed and anxious. I'm a bad student.

WHY THE FUCK DID I PROCRASTINATE THIS WHOLE FUCKING SEMESTER? I HAVE A 9 PAGE TERM PAPER AND A 3 PAGE PAPER AND 2 PAGE PAPER ALL DUE TOMORROW AT 1 AND 2PM AND IT'S 9:15PM THE NIGHT BEFORE IT'S ALL DUE AND I HAVE NOTHING DONE!!! I'M SUCH A DUMBASS!!!! WILL I EVER LEARN NOT TO FUCKING PROCRASTINATE?!!...

:lblstar: I can't stop thinking about cutting right now. :lgrnstar: I'm ashamed of how much money I've spent on weed this school year. :grystar: I already tried 2 different coping skills to avoid SIing and the urge is still here and very strong. :lblstar: I'm weening off my antidepressants and I thi...

my feelings of loneliness and sadness would improve if I reached out to a friend or went to bed.

Right now I have a strong urge to SI.

I smashed my pipe last night and this is my first day sober in a long time.

lazy

Matt: I don't want you to offer me weed anymore. Also, we're not having sex anymore. I'm trying to get back into my faith and you've been making that hard. I know we work a shift together once a week and you were my dealer for over a month, but we're not friends and our relationship is nothing good....

A: I saw you at work today as I was seating a table by you. I didn't know you were at the restaurant, and I got really nervous and hid in the kitchen for the next hour after I saw you. I feel embarassed that I didn't know how to act around you and I'm sorry. Part of me thinks I should have at least ...

disappointed with myself for almost throwing away a month clean from weed to impress a guy I met tonight.

:redstar: I really like this guy I met at a grad party tonight. He's really rough around the edges though and my parents would kill me if they knew I was hanging out with a 17 year old guy who's a stoner, been on probation and house arrest, and a real partier. I think I like hanging out with popular...

Dear rude customers at my restaurant, Fuck you. You make my job so much fucking worse. It's not my fault the food is over-priced. It's not like I priced it, bitch. Oh, and quit expecting me to run right out to your car within 30 seconds at 12:30 on a Friday afternoon. It's not my fault the food is s...

-Independent from my parents
-Living in my own apartment in a mid-sized city
-Hopefully in a relationship
-Hopefully with a degree and a job
-Able to express myself freely and better figure out who I am
-Happier and more secure

:star: I like working a lot so I can spend the least amount of time possible with my parents and save up money so hopefully I'll be able to move out within the next year or two. :blkstar: I purposely cancelled my week off work so I don't have to go on vacation with my parents. Working is less stress...

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck

Fuck midterms. Fuck papers. Fuck my ethics prof. Fuck Adam. Fuck my lack of motivation. Fuck it all!

I'm worried about these 2 exams and paper I have due on Wednesday.
I'm worried I'm going to slip and drink when I'm at my brother's house on Saturday
I'm worried I won't pass a drug test if my parents decide to test me next week even though I'm 10 days sober.

Mine found my box of tools and med supplies under my bed in September 2007, flipped a shit, and then sent me right to counseling...

super stressed