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I would not feel lonely if only I would reach out and try to connect with new people instead of being frozen by the fear of rejection.

Boundaries My last act of SI was triggered due to my lack of boundaries and my respecting acknowledging my therapists boundaries. My life has suffered because my boundaries were taken from me. I wish to learn to take them back without hurting others so there is some place in between I need to find w...

Is there a way to make a two column table?

I have continued to keep my commitment to myself about not acting out

Me too Going to see mom in nursing home. T says I need to forgive her for my sanity. Mothers day is very stressful for me. Seeing her laying there unable to walk but still the same manipulator / martyr she has always been.

upset

It starts with learning to love yourself

If you like you can always visit my place to recieve a kind word and some sillyness. There are some issues in my place that are not silly or happy but the friends help to make it a happy place to visit mostly.

I had a serious discussion about a sensitve issue and did not get angry and defensive. OK not too much which is good for me

sad and tired.

like I am rejecting something that is part of me when I push those and my other thoughts away.

I watch too much news and listen to npr because I like to learn stuff but also so I feel like someone is talking to me helping me to not feel lonely. I like music but have difficulty hearing the words which feels like I am the outsider.

dad I'm sorry

empty

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You stupid fuck you are going to get yourself fired and maybe you two managers because you are listening to a bitch who hates you and another who does not care.

Angry Upset scared and Triggered

lovebug There are many many young woman like yourself here. Reach out and just say hi in their places. It is OK. Even just a star and asking permission to read along will let them know you are here. No one will say no and they will know you are here. Some will visit you right away and some will visi...

What is your secret? I am sexually compulsive Why is it a secret? Because I would be know by others the way I know myself What are your feelings about this secret? I am ashamed that I can't stop Why are you telling this secret now? It is not a secret here but I want to act out and am trying not to ...

I lie because I want people to like me. Not here thou. People like me here for reasons that are their own which I do not understand. It is ok not to understand

I don't want anyone to know that I want to act out. I am such a freak