bus

Take me to the water

Make me understand that I was wrong

Bad Girl Kim Addonizio She's the one sleeping all day, in a room at the back of your brain. She wakes up at the sound of a cork twisted free of a bottle, a stabbed olive plopped into gin. She's prettier than you and right now you bore the shit out of her, sitting there sipping when she wants to stan...

I am grateful that I'm okay again now

Forget about guns and forget ammunition Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore & I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore When we think it wi...

i am...
lazy
full
itchy

i am not...
happy with who i am

i feel...
dissatisfied
guilty
worried

i want...
to be the me I want to be

i need...
to sort myself out
to clean up my act

i have...
a flat
bus
a sketchpad

i love...
drawing
my brother
my friends

i hate...
my patheticness

I am grateful that the rivers haven't flooded

Soon a new year will be here demanding, as before, modest proposals, resolute resolutuions, a new leaf, new leaves. This is the story of my life, the story of all lives everywhere, mad fools wherever we are, in here or out there. Light and sane I shall walk down to the train, into that world whose ...

You Still Believe in Me -- the Beach Boys I know perfectly well I'm not where I should be I've been very aware You've been patient with me Every time we break up You bring back your love to me And after all I've done to you How can it be You still believe in me I try hard to be more What you want me...

It is

I ate 2 helpings at dinner the night before

And kept them down

Yeah... I guess

Going to have lunch now.

Bleuch.

But I'll eat it

Okay.

Feel worthless, but it's done. I ate.



I know I'll be ish in like... maybe another month or so, but right now I'm all still. It's day 3, innit?

Early days yet...

Thank you for the

It's time for me to eat again. And I don't want to. I'm trying to talk myself into it by saying I'll whizz it up into soup because soup is easier to stomach (and swallow, and my throat feels like it's all closed up) but I just really don't want to eat and I know I have to and... and... help? Reasons...

I am grateful for lastfm

Ooh... whoopsee. Fully forgot that, sorry... *edits* It is balanced, like, overall. Like, I had to have blood tests for said plan for them to like... make it in the first place. It's way way long-term, too. Like, 7 months and then I'm off it, or something. And I go see them every week. The dietician...

That Ruth Miller one is lovely Roxi. Loved the imagery :D Dive Andrea Gibson i often repeat myself and the second time's a lie i love you i love you see what i mean i don't ...and i do and i'm not talking about a girl i might be kissing on i'm talking about this world i'm blissing on and hating at t...

I am grateful for the sunshine

The Fall -- Frightened Someone's always on my tracks And in a darkroom you'd see more than you think I'm out of my place, gotta get back I sweated a lot, you could feel the violence I got shears pointed straight at my chest And time moves slow when you count it I'm better than them and I think I'm ...

So I have a massive diet plan thing now. Not a weight loss one, just a healthy eating-y one, and I've eaten the way it says but now I feel like such a huge failure, even though I know I shouldn't feel this way :( It's the first day, and I've only eaten one meal today (because I have to have 5 hour i...

:cyheart: Name: Lenny/Elena :lblheart: Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Yes. Yes I am :D :cyheart: If so what is your motivation: It's a spirally thing for me, aye. I can only see it getting worse, and while it's been helping me to survive my life, I want to live it, instead. Hard to e...