bus

i know you will always be in my life.


and it hurts me more than anything else.

like dying

i hope to god that i am going to make it another day.

colours by Kid Harpooni would post lyrics, but i couldn't find any for this song.

YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE! I CAN'T BELEIVE I LET YOU DO THOSE THINGS TO ME! YOU SAY THE MEANEST THINGS TO ME. YOU FUCKING MAKE ME CUT! i hate you more than anything else in the world.
I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!!! YOU CAN ROT IN HELL FOR ALL I CARE!
YOU CAN EAT SHIT!

i don't love you.
i never have, i never will. i only went to court so you would stop bothering me

sometimes i think i will never be clean.

i hope oneday i never have thought of SI again.
and i hope one day i will be able to have a man touch me and not feel dirty.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
VAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD FAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNN!

i am sorry it's sooooo long. the song is 16 minutes! only skin, joanna newsom and there was a booming above you that night, black airplanes flew over the sea and they were lowing and shifting like beached whales shelled snails as you strained and you squinted to see the retreat of their hairless and...

sad
inchoate
taciturn
empty
worhtless
like cutting
scared
ashamed
dirty
bad
like a failure

i can't ell you this, but you are my trigger.

i am alone an SI-er interracial i am not special clean( in SI terms) over it i feel inchoate taciturn alone like i can't trust anyone i want... to be loved. simple as that i need... my space food water shelter Damiano Sanna ( good friend. only person i can talk to) i have... carved words scars brown...