bus

Even if everyone else has abandoned me

My family loves me and I can't let them down

Stop f@#$ing whining to me about your life. You have everything I want. You don't even know what feeling depressed is, so stop coming to me with your f@#$ing problems, especially because you are the on causing them (Btw: You are the most immature person I've ever met) You are a whore. I can't believ...

I wish my friends weren't so far away

I wish I had friends where I am

I wish highschool had never ended

I wish things didn't change

I wish I wasn't fat

I wish I had a boyfriend

I wish I had an amazing talent (like singing, painting, sewing, etc.)

I wish I was happy

I hope I will have the courage and strength to go see the psychologist tomorrow

Because I didn't want my mom worrying about me more than she already does.

Because my best friend threatened me with random things if I hurt myself again

Because I want to be a strong person and let others think I'm a strong person


And I haven't done it since! Six days (?) and counting!

I proud of myself because, even though I hate my school, I'm currently acing all my classes (A's on all my midterms!)

I mostly proud of myself because I did political activist work today and made a difference in the world

I feel:
Like screaming

Irritated

Lonely

Alienated

You don't understand how I feel, because you are happy. You knew what I was doing and didn't try to stop me. You didn't even ask about it. Why? To my roommate: I hate your fakeness. Your laugh. And, most of all, you hipocrisy. Don't preach to me about being a "good Christian" when you have hickies a...