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I realized that adding another ugly scar to my body would not help me in the long-run.

I started to SI when I was 12.5, and they had it figured out by the time I was 13.5 or so. I quit from age 14 to age 16.5, but then I started up again and was a lot more discreet about it. For some reason I felt compelled to tell my mother about it. I guess I was 17.5 or so at that point. I'm 19.5 n...

...because I was too tired.

In five years I'll be 23. I'll hopefully be done with my undergraduate degree(s) and either working in my field or going to graduate school. I'm sure I'll still be living where I do now, but I'd like to move away as soon as I can.

Right now I feel tired, nervous, anxious, sad, and stressed.

i am...
so stupid sometimes.

i am not...
in a good place right now.

i feel...
exhausted and worthless.

i want...
to sleep for a while, to get away from it all.

i need...
a break.

i have...
too much to do.

i love...
having time to myself.

i hate...
feeling like this.

Maybe I do still like you sometimes, and that's why it hurts me so much when you do things like this.

I didn't because I was too tired.

^ Wow! Awesome!



I'm proud of myself today because I haven't binged.

I feel very, very stressed and overwhelmed. I'm also exhausted and devoid of energy.

I'm tired, stressed, and hungry.

I'm going to try to have a relaxing night, I'm going to get my schoolwork done on time, and I'm going to eat some dinner soon.

I am proud of myself because I didn't have negative thoughts at all today.