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i really miss CJ

If someone stood up in a crowd And raised his voice up way out loud And waved his arm And shook his leg You'd notice him If someone in a movie show Yelled "fired in the second row, This whole place is a powder keg!" You'd notice him And even without clucking like a hen Everyone gets noticed, now and...

i miss you more than i can ever tell you... more than i should... we're really pretty superficial friends, but you're the only one who calls me anymore... the only one who sends me real emails and not that "forward this to 10 friends" crap... the only one whose opinion seems to matter to me anymore....

i'm worried that now that he knows about my si, he doesn't really want to be my friend anymore...

please from now on don't tell me when i'll get to see you. don't give me a time, don't give me a day... just let it be a pleasant surprise when you show up... because everytime you tell me that you'll be around, you never are... and stupid me, i sit and wait for you even though deep down i know you...

How Long Must This Go On - Beauty & The Beast (Broadway) How long must this go on? This cruel trick of fate? I simply made one careless wrong decision! And then the witch was gone And left me in this state - An object of revulsion and derision. Hated... Is there no one.. who can show me.. how to wi...

i am... alone afraid fat dizzy hungry apparently virtually entertaining getting better at using PhotoShop i am not... sure i can do this going to get to talk to anyone today ever going to be a supermodel i feel... stupid desperate urgy cold i want... to sleep for days to cut to not cut to talk to C...

worthless
lonely
sad
dizzy
hungry
worried

I Am - Hilary Duff I'm an angel, I'm a devil I am sometimes in between I'm as bad as it can get And good as it can be Sometimes I'm a million colors Sometimes I'm black and white I am all extremes Try and figure me out - you never can There's so many things I am I am special I am beautiful I am won...

Tomorrow by Avril Lavinge And I wanna believe you, When you tell me that it'll be ok, Ya I try to believe you, But I don't When you say that it's gonna be, It always turns out to be a different way, I try to believe you, Not today, today, today, today, today... I don't know how I'll feel, tomorrow,...

itchy
like a screw up
dizzy
tired
like i really don't want to go to work tomorrow
like i might cry

Hi. Welcome back to bus. And congrats on going 4 months without SI. It's not easy, and it's something you should be very proud of.

Have you looked at the coping resources thread?

http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=97617

I think it will help a lot.

*hug if that's ok*

i miss you. i haven't seen or spoken to you in four years, but suddenly I'm aware again of the fact that you're gone... and i don't know why. you broke my heart, and if you showed up on my doorstep, i'd tell you to go to hell... but i miss you... and i hate you for it...

PERFECT (Alanis Morissette) Sometimes is never quite enough If you're flawless, then you'll win my love Don't forget to win first place Don't forget to keep that smile on your face Be a good boy Try a little harder You've got to measure up And make me prouder How long before you screw it up How man...

anxious. like i want to cry.