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You're the only person I can tell and now I can't even tell you...please please please say something to me because I CAN'T say anything to you. And it will be too late. Think it is already. Does it matter? Really? Can't ask anyone else for help and I can't ask you now either. Going to not matter an...

I might have said that I don't expect you to talk to me...and I don't, really. But...I wish you would. I really wish you would, despite not expecting you to. Please do. You helped me out the other night but I still feel like dying, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry...you're my only friend in the world. I...

I'm sorry I fucked up my chance when you gave me every opportunity to talk yesterday, and now I know you'll probably not talk to me for ages, but please do, please, please please please please talk to me, I need you, I need a friend so badly right now, I can't hold it together anymore and everythin...

Miss you. Need my friend...if we're friends. Worried too. And...sad...I just want to die. It doesn't matter if we're friends or not anymore. Please let me know you're ok and you'll continue to do ok and I'll go away. Don't know why you didn't tell me...you did promise you would. Thought you knew it...

I don't know how you could ever say we are similar when you completely fail to understand such a simple thing about me...I don't believe you care...I don't believe I'll be telling you how I am. I don't think you care, and I don't think it'll matter much anymore anyway. Most people would just be ups...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. I don't give a shit if you don't want to be my friend but DON'T fucking act like my best friend when you don't really like me. Don't be nice when you don't mean it. If you don't want to be my friend then fucking FINE but don't act like that, it's jus...

Yeah, we're SUCH great friends, so you say...So why don't you even wanna talk to me? Don't you ever realise I need a friend too? Why don't you get how much this hurts right now? I wish you'd never cared in the first place, I wish you'd never made friends with me or shown an interest in how I feel. ...

Accidental double post. Mouse is broken, double clicks when it shouldn't.

You still just said nothing. Guess I shouldn't think of you as a friend. Don't need anyone anyway so whatever, if you don't like me...I just would rather you never acted like my friend if you're really not. And I do still miss you.

You still didn't speak to me...please do...I barely even feel like I exist, I feel so invisible. Even an automated email left my name out and just wrote Dear [blank] and everyone ignores me online and cuts me off in real life but you said you're my friend and I did make an effort so please talk to m...

I don't know how I come across to you...but you say we're good friends and I should trust you. I just wish you'd talk to me, I don't know if I annoyed you or if we're both just being antisocial...Please talk to me, I need my friend. I miss you. I don't have anyone else.

I made my own worry doll... http://i11.photobucket.com/albums/a178/englishros3/20101128-IMG_8201.jpg So if anyone wants to borrow her, feel free :) I worry that my friend isn't really my friend anymore...leaving me with no friends. I worry about all the work I have to do for uni. I worry about thing...

What is your secret? I don't feel like I qualify for help from a doctor for the way I feel and SI and so on. Why is it a secret? Because I'm usually not so down on myself about things like this, and it feels wrong to admit that. What are your feelings about this secret? I know, rationally, that I h...

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i am... Going to get professional help eventually. Tired. A bit desperate. i am not... Beneath the doctor's concern. Tall. Happy. i feel... Tearful. Alone. Urgey. Anxious. Unsure. i want... My bed. To SI. For it to be easier to get help. i need... Some compassion. Someone who knows what to do. A hu...