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Sprink seems to have alcohol and pain killer issues. Along with weed sometimes.

I promised my darling CS that I wouldn't.
I refuse to start out this relationship with lies.
I want him to trust me.

I'm done trying to heal him. I've finally realized, only he can help himself.

*slight sex trig* * * * * I miss you. It's killing me. You always said you'd be there. That I could trust you. You'd never leave me. But now? Now you're gone. What the hell? I miss you S. You're the first girl I've ever loved. The first girl I ever kissed. The first girl I ever made love to. Becaus...

I'm so messed up, that I don't even expect people to get me anymore.

pm'd djones

*language, drugs* What the hell Becca!? You're like the older cousin I don't have but have always wanted. I look up to you. I need you to be the good person in my life. You're stronger than this. Pot!?!?! How is that sensible. Yes I get it, you're experimenting and figuring out who you are. Fine. Bu...

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being too open. Too honest. I'm sorry I'm trying to make this work. I'm sorry I'm giving this a better start than I have in the past. I'm sorry for my jealousy, I'm just freakin sorry ok. Is that what you want to hear? Cuz at this point I'll say anything.. I love you, please...

pm sent to:

IDon'tWantTo

pm sent to

corundum

pm sent to

mimiaunt
MaryEllen

also pm'ed rebeccakmc

is sprink supposed to be able to see welcome wagon?

I've been triggered more times than I can count this week. But when he asks, I lie, he doesn't need to worry about me..

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Today in math, I looked down and the words "huge, fat, gross, etc" ran through my mind. This is the first in about a month. I think the problems I'm having with my boyfriend may have something to do with it.

I hate that I'm still crying over you..

You treated me like shit, used me, cheated, lied, took advantage of me, and are the sole purpose of my trust issues. I blame you for every single negative thought that has crossed my mind since November 2007. You got S in the worst trouble possible and now I may have lost her friendship because of y...

Why are you such a control freak. He's seventeen. Let him be a teenager. He'll be a legal adult next year. Deal with it. I am. Its killing me that you don't trust us. Not because you should. You have every reason NOT to. I know that, he knows that. We're being safe. Honestly, I love him. I'm in love...

A - Fuck. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
How many times do I have to tell you before you realize the what I mean?


M - Back off already. I love her. Fuck off.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck! I hate you all. Go fucking die you low life fucking bastards. How the fucking hell can you leave me!? I've taken so much bullshit for every single one of you and now you just fucking leave!? Thanks guys. Soo much. Really I mean it. Thanks for showing me what great friends you gu...