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Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It will be an honest expression . A howl of a wolf in the lonely landscape. It will be an honest act of who I am, of what I am now, ...

I tried again with H. and it worked. I was clear about what I wanted to do, and he engaged in a positive conversation with me. He apologized for saying ' crap' before. He didn't know. I've been saying my thinking is off for over a month and he said he didn't know what that meant. I had no idea. I th...

Hi Zazie, I was so amazed at what you wrote about my communication. I'm wondering if you could maybe try for something more obviously indicative of it being in distress than 'my thinking is off' (which I wouldn't know how to interpret) while still expressing yourself in words? Like telling your husb...

This is a little late, but try posting this on the Main thread (bodies under siege) and you will probably get some answers...

I worry that there isn't any 'getting better".

I hope you never quit smoking again, you got so cruel and mean and out of control.

Thank you zazie for taking the time with my 'before'. You asked some really good questions. I'll see what I can do with them. Will you be more powerful, or will you feel more powerful? Because I don't think SI gives you any power you don't already have. Thats a good point. I will feel more powerful,...

write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will be more powerful. I will be able to handle all the work I need to do and not be so emotional. I will also be able to ask for help and it will be obvious t...

I feel like I'm going down , down , down.

I am either going to fight it and keep up the functioning
or
give in and go for a ride down

When I say I'm not doing well, I mean it. Why do you ignore that like I'm fine? I am falling apart......and you will be suprised when things happen, even though I told you!

Here I am lost my second T. in a few months, #1 sick #2 moved - I can't deal. I can't find a new T. I've tried 3. I see them twice, they say something that unbalances me or is just plain stupid, and then I don't go back. Why go back for more punishment? I am so tenuous anyway loosing my support, how...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will let myself cut again, after the struggle not to. It will change because I won't have to want to cut anymore. what will hurtin...

Because even if the idea sounds great in my head, I really don't want to physically cut.

I'm not as well as you think. I just made myself seem better to make you happy.

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel like the one that is in control and making decisions, instead of my T. just telling me that if I cut I will loose him or go to ...

Consequences, consequences, consequences! My T. would have a fit. I would be caught up in it and not be able to think of much else. More stupid scars to worry about come summer. Cuts on Christmas - I've had enough of that in the past, who wants that? And my husband in a moment of sweetness and carin...

When I was first 'sick' 13 - 14 years ago I saw a psychologist, we worked together every weekday because I was so SU and he was an analyst type. He moved after about a year and a half of working together. I was able over the last 7-8 years to not cut and start over a new life without SI and SU, star...

I am having a terrible time coping with the loss of someone that was very important in my life for 13 years. I can't seem to cope. I thought I would do okay and I am not. I can't seem to get it together. I'm scared of everything. I don't want to go out. My cutting is terrible and now because of the ...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I won't have to want to anymore. It will be done and I can sleep better. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will ...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? Good enough what had happened just before? Talked to T., alone in car what were you thinking and feeling? angry, not sure why I wanted to cut so much why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the fina...