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I'm so in love with you it feels like a bomb's inside my chest. And I'm beyond thrilled that you're talking to me again....but,I'm honestly afraid you'll start pushing me away again and I'll be ruined.

Cool.I'm glad to hear that.I usually make bracelets for everyone special in my life,and I really enjoy doing it.It makes me feel a little less crappy.

That sounds pretty.Did she like it?

Awesome...I love drawing and doing various little arts and crafts.

I want to see all the beautiful bracelets you guys are making.I should post some pictures of my own when I have the time.

Yeah,I've found out that my crafting hobbies can really be a life saver.
I think your T will love the drawing and bracelet!!!!
Agh,I want to craft now,too bad I have to go to work!!!

Wow,sounds really beautiful.The diamond shapes are really fun to do,plus time consuming. I think your idea to make one for your therapsit is cool.Even if you don't actually give it to her.Or if you feel like it's wierd,then you could make her a key chain or something else to show your gratitude. I'm...

No problem.

Lovely bracelets!!!

Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do ...

wow,I was just thinking about painting my nails the other day,but I felt crappy.I guess that means I should have lunged for my nail polish....
I'm going to paint the crap out of my nails now!!!!

Awesome.I'm sure they will turn out looking great!!! oooh,sounds like you're going to have a great looking bracelet ReineDuSommeil. I made my Orange the thickest (4 strands) since it's the main problem, Dark blue was 3 strands and white was 2 strands.That's one of the things I like is you can make o...

They're actually not too difficult,they just take a lot of time.I average an hour to an hour and a half to make one.
This is a pretty good site for directions on making them: http://www.geocities.com/hbernb/

It even shows you how to make letters!!!!

Yeah,I like making woven ones because they take longer and I like the look of woven jewelry.If I make one for me and still feel urgey or crappy I make another one for a friend. Mine is Orange,White and Dark Blue.I love it.
I wear it everywhere!!!

Sometimes I wish I'd never met you,but I know that's not what I really want,and I hate that.

You are a worthless,backstabbing,whore and I am so ashamed to call you my sister.You fooled everyone around you into thinking you're some fabulous wonderful person INCLUDING YOUR HUSBAND,and you couldnt be more the opposite.Mom is trying to turn me into you!....she's obsessed with you,its pathetic.Y...

Why the fuck would you come? I never invited you and I didnt want to see you.I didnt want to hear you say "hi" or make excuses so you wouldnt have to sit near me.I get it,YOU DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME.Why are you rubbing this in my face?....bastard,how dare you use me.

If you're going to open your mouth to say anything to me it should be sorry.If it's not that than don't even fucking bother,seriously.

You didnt look at me.
This fucking hurts.

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I don't know,I can't handle this.I just can't handle this feeling.I can't breathe.I'll be able to relax,instead of panic. what will ...

Name: Infectiousbrain Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: I quit on 12/2/07 but am still struggling not to replase every day. If so what is your motivation: It's life consuming,and a bad way of coping with things. Favorite coping skills: Rubber bands,hot showers,curling up into little bal...

I'm lost confused and fucking numb as hell.I also can't post on the Before & after section which is making me feel WAY shittier.I don't think I can resist these urges anymore,it's too exhausting.I want to cry or scream or slice my wrists or fucking SOMETHING.I can't take it.I'm scared how unlike mys...