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an awful sense of dread

I haven't done anything to deserve your treatment of me. I stay out of your way. I don't interfere with your life or anything you try to do. I don't even ask of anything from you, except to treat me with some modicum of respect, because, contrary to your beliefs, I am actually a human being with hum...

Congratulations to everyone who's posted in this thread.

Reading about your accomplishments has cheered me up quite a bit.

pleased!
slightly relieved!

I'm feeling nervous, frustrated and dejected.

But I'm going to go ahead and call anyway. Even if it doesn't work out, absolutely nothing bad will happen. Everything will be okay. I can also try again another time.

calmer
loved albeit in a distant way
comforted
conflicted
like I don't want to think anymore

I was really thrilled today to find an understanding friend who still treated me like a normal person after he knew!

I'm feeling shaken, scared, helpless and alone.

I'm going to:
Drink some warm milk
Write in my journal
Remind myself that he is gone right now and that everything is okay
Try to make myself comfortable enough to do some work until I can talk to someone about it in the morning