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What is the point if it won't change things? Won't it even change how you feel even if it doesn't change the situation? i guess...i would feel...different...i have real problems identifying feelings... i would feel better and i would feel sneaky and i would feel like i have a secret again...and i w...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? im not sure, it wont really what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? i will get the "bad" attention again, and i will have something to feed my stupid manipulative side with [ :( ] i will ...

used, hurt, not...enough.

sad. resigned.

THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE ELSE, ISNT THERE?
i am never enough.

figure out what led to the slip. my dad said something mean and unnecessary to me, but i was already feeling bad because of stupid "boy problems" have you taken care of your physiacl wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. enough for now what had happened just before? saw A earlier, and then my ...

trying to answer after the fact re: how i felt before... Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? my dad was mean to me for no reason; someone who i like is stringing me along and im going with it because i am dumb like that Have I been here before? What did I do to de...

from the 'old' A: "I'm sorry I did that to you, I am a moron and I never should have chosen someone else over you. You are more important to me than she is. I chose you most of all. I screwed up." from the 'new' A: "I want people to know about you. You are important to me." and "I want to help you, ...

hurt.

unimportant.

bothersome.

unnecessary.

i wonder if this (or a less charged situation to start, maybe) might be a good way to practice saying what you think? now that it's not a situation happening right now, maybe you could say to him that you actually were really bothered by it because you're not terribly fond of drugs but you didn't w...

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will bring me the knowledge that i can deal with things myself, that i'm not dependent on others. it will take away all those horrible indescribable and unbearable Feelings. i hate feelings...realisticall...

What was stopping you from saying you weren't ok with the idea? didnt wanna cause 'turbulence', i guess...and if its something he wants to do he has a right to do it, my feelings dont really mean anything because its his deal, not mine...and if he did take what i thought into consideration i think ...

figure out what led to the slip. alright, thats what im tryin' to do here... :wink: have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. yes i have what had happened just before? my friend told me he was going to a friend's house and they had access to some weed what wer...