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<s> Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go ...

Before You Self-Harm how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel distanced and even more estranged from a boyfriend that is already scarcely talking to me for some unknown and inexplicable reason. I resent him when he neglects me, but I love him so much when he talks to ...

Unstable and insecure in everything

I'm going to drink a nice warm cup of tea, relax, maybe write and draw a little bit, and get a good night's sleep. Then I'll just deal with it in the morning.

I'm going to be really hypocritical right now and just say, I read and can empathize with what you're feeling right now. I sincerely hope you stay safe and make the decision that is best for you.

lazy and depressed.

I think my brain has that, except it's a ping! noise instead of a box, which makes it easier to ignore.

Thanks for sharing that, it is really interesting!

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I love my boyfriend.

my relationship does mean a lot to me, and I'm glad you suggested calling him. I couldn't last night because he's really, really sick with the flu, but if it ever happens again it'll probably be the first thing on my list. Thankfully, I am not posting an After today. :D Thanks for the reply! :blkstar:

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: I feel like I'm being brutally honest with myself right now, and everything out of my mouth isn't the manipulative, victimized words of some little girl needing help because she wants to screw up ove...

Well, I've got some examples. They're things I do sometimes when I feel like hurting myself or get stressed out, but I can't tell if they're cheating and I'm actually SIing or if they're a valid coping method(however tentatively so). First, when I get stressed or angry, I'll bite my lip. Never hard ...

Why do you visit before and after? To get it all written out and on paper, almost like documentation- "See, it's not like I didn't try to fight it." To help sort it out and delve ever so slightly deeper into the urges before. I can't ever really do after. Either the questions scare me right now or....

i feel like a horrible person for being unable to help you when you were so miserable with the flu on our trip to ireland. seeing you so sick like that terrified me, and i'm so scared that if it ever happened again i feel like i might break in two. i want her to like me like i like her. i want to r...

Questions to Answer After A Slip slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do ...

That actually sounds like a really, really good idea. The problem is is that if I stay downstairs I can't SI, because my tools are upstairs in my room. To snuggle up and hide away I'd have to go into my room. But I'll try it before I go to bed, or maybe even before I may SI.

Thank you so much.

I know you are all here for me, but it feels artificial. I don't know any of you irl. You support everyone that traipses along through here and it bothers me. It feels like a generic, hey-we're-the-members-and-mods-and-we've-stopped-SIing-so-now-we're-gonna-spew-pleasant-things-at-you.

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I... I don't know. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will make me slip up for ...

I was sitting here at my computer chatting with people and googling for SI support groups in PA (there aren't any. any at all. whhhhhyyyy?). Now suddenly I feel totally abandoned and lonely and urge-y. Like there's this energy running straight from my heart in two branches to each of my arms, and it...