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Sam- I didn't change you dumbass. The way you saw me changed. I'm not just unique now, I have a fucking title. I'm mentally ill. I'm not your debate topic anymore, am I, you fucker. I'm a real person, one who has feelings and hurts and you fucked with them. I'm angry at you for not being the person ...

To whomever wrote that on my door today: WHY???? What did I do? Are you trying to send me down a suicidal spiral? Or are you just a heartless bitch??? AAAHHHH

Erin Thank you. You actually care and I love you so much and not just for that. I wish every happiness for you. If Joe is a dick again I'll cut his off or at least torture him because he doesn't deserve you anyway. Thank you.

Brandon Leave me the hell alone. Why don't you understand? Did dating me make you crazy? or did I just inspire the mind numbing pyschoticness of you this time? You think there's something fucking wrong with me you asshole? Look in the mirror. The one you kicked in. I may be bipolar but I'm under con...

Julie- thank you. I don't know why you are there for me but you are without fail and I love you. You remind me what Christians should be and I hope someday I can tell you this.

Michelle WHY are you doing this? Why Why Why are you making her life miserable? Why Why Why HHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPPPPP

Joe- dammit don't come in here and use my computer and print in color and leave it with no paper. You can't even remember my fucking name and I don't even like you.

A- I want to help you but I can't. I just don't know what to say. Tell me what you need. A friend? Someone to listen? AHHHHHH. Frustrated.

Cody- Stop being such a dumbass. You're being a jerk. And a psycho. And if my sister wasn't such a nice person she'd never talk to you again. And if she didn't than I could stop. AHHHHHHH. You make me soooo frustrated and then you say maybe you hate me because I irritate you sometimes. What the FUCK...

Kelsey- I love you, I want what's best for you, please tell me if I'm not giving you that. I wish I knew more.

God- please help me. Double please.

I don't want my sister to think it's a good idea

I don't want to hurt people I love.

I promised Lucy.

It's my choice and I'm making it like this.

I know this is three in a row, but I have a lot on my chest. Mike & Angela- get off my case. Please. I know you actually care and it's not just liability, but I can't report to my hall director after every therapist appt. I can't. Ang, I'm not mad at you you did what you thought best. But I don't do...

Jess- I talked to him last night. Bite me. My choice. Juston- I loved talking to you. It was great. You're an ass but still. Kelsey- Please work around Mom. She's crazy. It's ok. Mom- I have screamed in my journal at you so many times. But it's better now. Dad- you're my hero. I'm never getting marr...

Jess- I know you think you're the only person who got hurt in our "friendship" but you weren't. You made my life living hell and I'm so glad I moved away from you (figuratively and literally) and can see that. I don't like you as a person. There, I admitted it to myself. I hate what you did to me an...