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I decided I could hold off, and had no real reason to SI.

Went to sleep and forgot about triggery things instead.

I knew I didn't really need to - I just wanted to.

Didn't because I knew I had made it so long, and my T would be disappointed.

I wish I could be truely happy.



That's all I want right now.

Uhh it hurts...

*cries*
*sniffle*
*sniffle*
*lots more cries*

everything hurts so much right now...

my parents- [/i]you guys dont understand me, you never have, dont try to now that you know about my SI. It's too fucking late. I am sorry I failed you guys, I am sorry you dont understand. You guys dont want to realize what is going on, so you choose not to, and that is fine with me... so dont ask....

I have cried here before... but I am so sorry, I just need to cry again...

I am so confused about myself and my life and *sighs*
I am just going to cry...

Thanks for a place to cry...

**A smiling face doesn't necessarily mean a smiling heart...**

~talk to people on aim to get it off my mind

~go find another post... a happy one

~get offline a bit and use all the other many distractions that we have

I would like to get my own avatar. But I don't know where to look to get one. When people get them - where are they getting them from? I don't know where to even begin looking?