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ha, sorry i haven't been on in awhile.
a lot of stuff has happened....

but anyway,

i used to live in the city.
but it just got way too bad over there.
so i had to move back to the suburbs.
yay?

the apartments in downtown are amazing.
i wouldn't be able to afford one either haha.

but its always okay to dream

hey, the suburbs can do that to you.
you think you can leave but you always go back.
how did you end up living in the suburbs?

i don't even cope. ha, i gave up hope.
its too hard to change where i live..,
thank god some of my family lives in chicago.
so i can at least have one day different from all the others.

talking about this makes me feel so trapped up right now.
how bad is it for you guys?

i know exactly how you feel.
ha, i wish i lived in chicago...
there's no one ever around doing anything.
its always quiet, no excitement. and tons of stuck up rich people.
i hate living in the suburbs. everyone's cooped up in their house.

i hate it here!
people are more alive in the city.

first time - lifehouse
rooftops - lostprophets
calabria - enur and natasha.
^^ha that one just gets me in a good mood.
=]
the first two have a good meaning to them.

i feel really anxious and i'll start shaking and tapping on things.
and the more i try to get it out of my mind,
the more i think about doing it...

its really hard...
and i can't fight it off.

and i end up doing it anyway.

dear friend - stacie orrico ...my "friend" dedicated this song for me when she found out i si'd. but, i did i so much...then she left me. and i have no one. and every time i hear this song, i cry my eyes out. Dear Friend, what's on your mind You don't laugh the way you used to But I've noticed how ...