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i wish i never had to eat ever again.

Name: Em :cystar: Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Indeed i am...i'm trying to stop :) :cystar: If so what is your motivation: i'm so sick of the years i have thrown away, of the lies and cover ups and scars. :cystar: Favorite coping skills: Writing..poetry or journal. Watching CSI 8) ...

i have gone veggie again for all the wrong reasons.

i am scared i am influencing a friend. That i am somehow responsible.

PMs fine.

i am thinking of going vegetarian again.
i know it is for all the wrong reasons.
i don't want the hassle or the negative attention it will bring.
But it feels necessary.

PMs fine

Perhaps you could try to explain to your therpist what you have just said here?
i understand the 'getting bored' thing...what *does* interest you?

It's scary how things change in a few short months... Although in five years time, i will still be 26 :tongue: :cystar: i will have done some more counselling training, possibly to diploma level :cystar: i will have spent at another least a year travelling :cystar: i will have stopped the burning :c...

Promising myself that this won't last for ever.
Reminding myself that if i stay in bed there is no way i can start to make it better.
My parents.
My little sister.
A couple of friends.

Great thread el.

What coping strategies have you tried?
It's not going to happen overnight; it'll take work. But it *can* happen.
Take care.

*something of a bump* Thanks elf for starting this thread back in 04. OD'ing seems so tempting - i've been sent back here by a friend t re-read this thread. My experiences...i'm not sure how many times i have been hospitalised for od'ing. One time, i was already ip, and didn't tell any one for hours...

poorly
tired
unmotivated
just a bit useless, really

quite focussed
positive
but cold

a little less all over the place
a little calmer
cold
like a procrastinator
unmotivated

shattered
excited

that i'm liking these unnessecary early mornings
still quite focussed
determined
nervous

better
calmer
more focussed

overwhelmed
tearful
hopeless
helpless
alone
scared to reach out

~ hugs from the most wonderful sister in the world
~ hearing her voice when i miss her so much
~ new pyjamas when you're feeling sad

*PMs welcome* i thought i had buried the things that happened, but i haven't at all. As i start to get better and go out more, it's becoming more and more obvious. i can't function around other people. i struggle to sustain friendships a lot of the time; relationships with the opposite sex are impos...

lovely messages in my place
cross stitch
music
days in pjs