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It's Been Awhile - Staind

And it's been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I could say I love myself as well

you said you would call. it's been three days. i just need to know that i'm not so bad. i just need a reason, something more than what i have.

just call, please?

my rule is i can only do it in my bedroom and when nobody else is at home.

just feel weird if they are home, like i could get caught.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll be calmer, more focused. I'll know I'm alive. I'll have an outlet for my pain. Are there any other ways you could get that feeling of calmness? Meditiation? How else could you feel more alive? what will hurting myself bring to the sit...

Bulletproof - Goo Goo GODS!

Cause you're a bullet through my soul
And I'll never let you know

i'm completely and hoplessly infatuated with him. i think about him all the time. i want him but i don't love him.

i keep throwing food to the chooks so i have an excuse not to eat, cus there is nothing there. it's the family's food.

Hey Smeagol. I think it is both, not being able tohave someone here when it gets overwhelming, and being low on people I can see/be with. It was a very specific lonliness for friends in paticular, so I ugess the former was more applicable. I think now was that I could not let myself go to bed just i...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it will keep me going for another few days. release what has built up what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it would bring release, validity of my internal... pain? It would take away.....

That is a difficult question, in that I have not actively reaplced teh coping method. It jsut kind of happened. When my mood was cycling, I did not si, becasue my moods were ever chaning. I was never down for long. Nowdays, I do self injure, but not as bad as before. I think I change my mood using m...

Forgotten Years - Midnight Oil

The hardest years, the darkest years, the roarin' years, the fallen years
These should not be forgotten years
The hardest years, the wildest years, the desperate and divided years
We will remember, these should not be forgotten years

I feel strong, I feel vindicated and acknowledged. I feel useful, happy and excited. I feel able.

I feel.. reminiscent?

All Eyes On Me - Goo Goo Dolls [who else? :roll: ] And everything you're chasing It seems to leave you empty --- It's so hard to be someone Strung out from today And all that you know slips away --- And you hide in your room And the light burns away And you move from the truth It's all so far from you

apart from the need for a cigarette, empty... or full. whatever it is it's all in me. if that makes sense.

i feel 'all eyes on me' by the goo goo dolls...

lost, lacking and wanting.

The Noseblled Section - Hilltop Hoods
[Again, for the feel of the song. It's happy, hip hop.]

Truth Is A Whisper - Goo Goo Dolls [Gutterflower]

Sometimes you choke on the smell
Just to breathe
I need to question what I need
Rhythm of silence
That beats through your mind
Still you forget what you deny

half mellow half anxious. I also feel stubborn. i'm procrastinating.

Cheers for that Helika. I'm in a much better place today. I talked to Nipples this arvo and explained myself, and he said he understood, and next time to just say I need a bit of distracting. And he really did have to leave when he did, he was not blowing me off. Helika. your ideas sound good. I'll ...

Cheers mate, its good to know that I'm not the only one. If you are still around, how do you deal with it? Etiher good or bad. I can articulate anything when I'm going all intelectual. It kinda bugs me. meh. UPDATE I FEEL... WHAT I DID... The feeligns and such described before have intensified. I co...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Some reelif, the feeling that I have actually done something. if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then? It will last for a little while... then I will possibly si a...