bus

the dolphin's cry - live

not really the lyrics... it's more the feel of the song describies how i'm feeling.

satin sheets - silverchair

And anyone who cares
Lies on satin sheets
And I waste my time on no-one
And you think I really care

if you are going to keep coming into my work, visiting our friends on the same nights, sleeping with me, at least have the balls to ask me out! or at least talk to me! i don't care if all you want is the sex, i am happy with that. i like sex and i am a mature woman. just stop saying things to get m...

frustrated, angry, lost, energetic... mixed mood states are bloody hard!

mad season - matchbox twenty

And i need you now
Do you think you can cope, you've figured me out
That i'm lost and i'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken
Though i've never spoken
I come undone
In this mad season

drift and die - puddle of mudd

a mix of i hate everything about you - three days grace [can't think of the lyrics right now] and your disease - saliva and i want t take you down but your soul cannot be found it doesnt matter much you see cus your disease is killing me and simon - lifehouse you don't know why they had to go this f...

angry, hurt, frustrated, destructive

i will cruise bus and smoke until i think i can control myself then i will make contact about this whole dixie thing and try to see what is hapepning. i will ask advice from my sisters about what i can do and i will try to refrain from kicking things.

my probably best mate who i had assumed had gone to amreica for a while did not even go, had not told me and i only found out today by crusing mysepace. she was meant to leave A FUCKING MONTH AGO i have to have a 21st party and i fucking don't want to. i fucking hate it. i cant find my good lighter ...

hurt
angry
destructive
antisocial
dangerous
rage

your disease - saliva

and i wanna take you down
but your soul cannot be found
dosen't matter much you see
cus your disease is killing me

i am here



i want to be here



*me at 16, about to go to a formal dinner with all my mates

do you have any idea how much work i do for you? i clean, tidy, wash, i keep this fucking house running! so when you tell me off for not emptying the fucking dishwasher THAT I FILLED AND PUT ON, of course i am going to get pissy. then you have the audacity to come out with the 'you kida are so blood...

i am sad because i don't want to have to go through life fighting to be normal

i am happy because even though i do not want to fight anymore i know i have aceived a great deal for someone in my situation. [though i'll never admit it ]

Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry Save tonight And fight the break of dawn Come tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be gone Tomorrow comes to take me away I wish that I......that I could stay Girl you know I've got to go Lord I wish it wasn't so --- Hate This Place - Goo Goo Dolls Hold on dreamaway You're my sweet...

confused... and determined.

one that i've found helps with my anxiety and panic attacks is music. everywhere i go my mp3 player comes too, and it has a mix of all my anti anxiety/panic songs. just focusing on the music helps so much, and it helps block out the things that make me anxious, like thinking others are talking about...

can you please stop pussyfooting around and say something? we both know i'm not ok, we both know i'm destroying myself. you used to be so good at draggining it out of me. becasue it's not my bipolar, its not your problem? not as if i'd be too compliant, but i really would like to talk it over.

MARIJA SERIFOVIC It's been a long way. I try hard not to fall apart. I have been waiting A long time for you to take my hand. Loving and hating A desire that I don't understand . I can't breath, I can't sleep. Why can't I get through to you? I can't think, I can't speak. What am I to do? Faith is wi...

Tired, a little sad but... it's a 'normal' sad. Not sad because I'm a dickhead or sad beacuse I am fat or anything that I am used to. Just a sad beacuse a guy didn't call.

I feel good because even though I feel sad I do not feel the need to SI.