bus

You fucked me over
And yet I love you and I miss you.
I know it is a forbidden love, but I still long to kiss you again

WHY......Do you fucking keep lying about her......
I am so tired of this crap!!!
Fuck Off!

You freaked me out yesterday and I am still spooked!

Thank you for sticking this out with me.
I love you very much---we will get through all of the pain

I am worried that I won't be able to stop
I am worried that I told you and now we won't be friends
I am worried that I am stuck here forever

Why did you fuck with me like that?
That is not being my friend
Don't expect me to stay your friend, fuck you!!!!!

why, when you saw that I had SI'ed you just said "sorry"?

Thank you for being so sweet last night.
I am sorry for all I put you through!

OMG! I feel like such a freak!
I hate being biopolar and doing SI .
I am tired of being treated differently!
Don't tell me it is "ok", when clearly it is not!

Sometimes-----I just want to leave you!
I don't understand you unwillingness to share your feelings and thoughts with me! This roller coaster ride is making me nauseated!

I am worried about going to the Dr. today.
I am afraid of being hospitalized
I am afraid you will leave me

Maybe.....I Just want to!!

I feel like you are telling her all our secrets
You lie to me and I hate that!
Answer me please!!!!

I am having a hard time tonight...wish you could see that.

I am worried that I am driving you away
I am worried about my health
I am worried that I am not going to get better
I am worried that you will find out my mistake
I am worried about everything right now!

Why won't you talk....
I feel your distance and it hurts
I hate your drinking......I HATE IT!
I am sorry for hurting you

Your silence and unwillingness to talk to me hurts deeply. I feel like you don't care anymore. I know the things you said to her about me. Why can't you admit to me that you said them? It hurts, I hurt. I can't get past this right now.

I am worried I messed up my relationship
I am worried about SIing again after so long
I am worried that I will never be happy
I am worried that I will never find the "real" me
I am worried that I will lose all my friends
I am worried about the rapid cycles I am having (Bipolar)