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i read and im really sory for the pain you have been through and are still going through.

its the opposite with me...what happens is im really up crazily hyper and cant stop laughing and than its starts like the 'down' phase. i know its starting and it lasts a few days till i hit the bottom than things sloly start improving agian..but it always feels like its so hopless and desperate whe...

*ED* * * * * * * * * * * * *i think i hav an eating disoreder i binge and cant control how much i eat at night and im totally out of control and no one understands or realizes and i work out for 2 hours a day and still eat and i never tell any1 how much ive ate ever cos however little it is im still...

that sounds really hard..but like peppermint im very concenred about eh boy too...defintly if its that serioous i think u shud report it altohugh it mite put u in a bad situation with the boss
take care of yourself this must be really hard

i'd take:
1. paki cos she's my best friend and it wud be too lonely without her
2. lots of good music all my faves
3. lots of cigarettes cos we smoke a looot
4. a copula really good books
5. a bikini and sun block cos i burn too fast

A.S: the way u reacted to me really hurt me when i trusted you with sth that happened to me that really hurt. you confirmed all my worst fears. i knw it wudnt have made much of a differnce if u hadnt but u did. u didnt believe me. u made me feel like u thought i wanted your pity when i didnt. than t...

a.s: why the hell dont u believe me. it fucking happened and i trusted u adn now i feel so angry and alone. i didnt want sympathy i didnt want anything i jsut didnt want to end up coming home feeling like such a whore and freaking out about it. i hate how u made it into a joke how u told me any guy ...

A.S: im sorry i didnt believe you today. im sorry about what i said and how i reacted. im sorry that happened to you it wasnt your fault you didnt ask for it. S.Z: im sorry i stopped listening i shudnt have been so selfish i should have know you better and realized wat was going on. you didnt ruin t...

i told my parents i si'd last year, and it was really hard. They really did there best to help but in the end i let them believe i had stopped. i dont know how it is between you and your stepdaughter but for me its always been hard for me to talk to them about things. something u shouldn't do i thin...

i sgned up but it wont let me log in anymore

i wish i cud be me and no worry wat peepled think
i wish i was skinny
i wish i cud get out of egypt
i wish i wasnt so paranoid

feeling sooo bad on the inside but just cant let myself cry.. been doin too much of that lately

feeling a bit lousy rite now yeh definitly wanna cry