bus

my dance teacher said i could make it proffessionally. Its my life, and she doesnt give out compliments easily

when you promised me forever, i believed you
half a year gone and i still want that more than anything
this is going to take one hell of a long time
i still love you, and thats why i hate you so much
your ruining everything i have now just by being in my past.

C: i promised myself i wouldnt let myself feel like this again and look what youve done, i can feel it im slowly falling in love with you and i dont want to stop myself because you make me so happy but he promised me forever and then i lost my best friend im not letting myself get that hurt ever aga...

makes me laugh that you dont know how close you were to a punch in the face todayy. being around you irritates me, i dont know what it is, maybe that i cant have you anymore. but tbqh, even if i could i wouldnt want you, because i still sometimes cry over everything. a told you about how i havent cu...

fucking terrified.

i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you

i keep trying to tell myself. it isnt working.
i dont know whats happening to me. ive given up.

someone tell me who to believe! please! i cant just be stuck in the middle. i hate the middle if there was anyone for me to talk to properly id be better, but no, he fucked off, after all that trust, all that time I STILL LOVE YOU thats what gets me the most. today i didnt want to go, i almost turne...

when you ask if im okay and i say yes, ask me if im sure.

i feel so completely alone.

im trying to be angry with you cos its easier than hurting so muchh i love you. i probs always will, but you have no idea what your doing to me. i cant look at you. i cant even cry at the moment. my heart isnt healing as well as i thought it would and i want to punch your face in but i just want you...

because i didnt fight back
i walked out

what the fuck. bitch. why do that? its petty, but you know i was the one to start calling you that yano? its a bit of a kick in the crotch, like 'yeah im well moving on and dont care about you any more'
because as you said, you dont care if youve hurt me.
well you have.
happy now?

because he kissed me


again

when im with himm happy
i love him
and ive never meant that more
ever
why cant you see it? i love you too, but i hate it when you shout at me, throw spanners into the works, tell me you hate him.
he isnt making me pick sides.
neither are you
it just feels that way

i want to bleed.
i'm scared

help

i miss you


lots

both of you
and now my arms bloody again, and i cant text you cos ive no credit and sunday wont come soon enough.

can't you see it?

youre amazing
beautiful
my brother
best friend ever
supportive
the best eyes ever
good body
amazing hugs

and so much more, that you cant see.
its mental self injury. and youre there for me, so im here for you
xx

i am greatful for S

i love you, youre like my brother.

i am greatful for his hugs and reassurance.

i am greatful that he believes in me

i am greatful that he understands

i am greatful for this morning, when he sorted my head out
xxx

you dont realise how much that one hug cheered me up


the best friend i could ever ask for


a fucking brother to me.
thanks.
really, i mean that. ive told you, but i dunno if you actually believe it.
i love you so much it makes me cry.

Right. today you texted me, asking why i told you. i sent one back saying i knew you could be trusted and i thought you deserved to know. i meant that I trust you more than anyone, i think. Youre my best friend, like a brother. I love you so much and you just talking to me about anything, waving, sa...

I dont think you mean to but you hurt me today Wait. I know you meant to. Please dont turn out like her, im still not coping with that. Youre just twisting everything, and making it worse than it is. Making me feel guilty. Please remember that i told you my biggest secret because i trust you. Someth...

scared
stupid
alone