bus

just a few nights ago i woke up unable to fucking breath. i was clucking like a fucking chicken, almost. it was awful. a study showed that when you're half asleep your brain is even worse than when you're drunk...that's why waking up scared is really horrible because you do it when you can't conciev...

i hate myself today.

i really sick of standing at my till at work, and every damn fucker in the queue STARES at me. i know i'm goddamned paranoid...but in this case, it's the truth! no, i dont want you smirking at me because your masculinaty is oh-so apparent where as mine is virtually non excistant. and no, i dont want...

L - i wish i could have one more day with you before you metamorphised into the person i just can't help but deny excists. i'm sure there is a place in time where you're still here..if only in my head. i wish i could still find you there but you're fading...fading...fading...and i don't know you any...