*try and have "fun" watching football with my family
*make myself laugh at something
*have some tea
*avoid the bathroom (sharp objects...nooooo)...
*try and relax
*talk to people? even though no one is online...
*eat chocolate!
*** SU I am petrified that my best friend is going to attempt suicide again. I cant say anything, though...because I found out by accident and he hasnt told anyone/no one is supposed to know. I'm terrified that I'll get a phone call this week while I'm visiting family saying that he died or somethin...
I'm worried that I wont ever be happy.
I'm worried that SI will always be a part of my life.
I'm worried that I'll fail and disappoint everyone.
I'm worried that my friends will stop wanting to hang out with me.
I'm worried that I'll never find a boyfriend.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CANT I BE HAPPY FOR ONCE?! WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT I NEED YOUR HELP?! WHY DO I ALWAYS SEEM TO ISOLATE MYSELF?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...