bus

i didn't give in to urges/triggers.

sad, alone, worried

i hate that i'm nervous of seeing you again. please let things be easy. please know & understand that the limitations are there, but they don't have to be everything. i know i shouldn't ask that of anyone else when i can't seem to get that balance right myself, but there it is. and knowing me and t...

i've been taking my meds properly even though i haven't wanted to.

scared & alone

too much, unable to cope.

sad, breaking down.

sick, worried, lonely, alone.

sick, disappointing, weak.

i know it's my fault for disappearing, for shutting down, for so many other things, for being sick. i still wish that you'd notice that i'm disappearing. and although i know it just means that i am needy or uncapable, i still wish you'd reach out to me again and help. and i wish you'd know that no ...

i went to the dr. appt. i really didn't want to go to.

sick, alone, weak.

overwhelmed, triggered, depressed.

panicky, triggered.

anxious, disconnected, ashamed.

[*] how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? the feelings would shift, or at least i'd be focused on different feelings than the ones there now. the situation wouldn't, but again, the focus would shift... [*] what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away ...