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*nods* i can definitely understand how hard it can be to talk about it irl. glad things are getting a little better!

hurt

i'm reading & thinking of you. i know i can't imagine how your exact situation feels, but i've had similar experiences with irl friends -- it can definitely be so hard to cope with that. in regard to talking to your roommate, do you find it easier to express things like that in writing at all? if so...

i got errands done even though i wasn't feeling well/in pain.

sore/sick, drained, lost.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? the feelings will be numbed & the thought patterns i'm having would quiet down. i would feel relief from those things, otherwise the situation itself doesn't really change. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take...

feeling: panicky, disassociated, sore, unsafe.

going to: -take meds without skipping them.
-keep grounding distractions on in the background-music, etc.
-keep researching ways to get help or support, but take breaks from it if feeling triggered.
-rest without feeling guilty for it.

i'm a bit out of it on words & advice right now, but i just wanted to write to welcome you to BUS & this forum -- i think it takes a lot of strength, etc. to try out the before/after skills the first time & to post. i hope things are better by the time you are reading this--i could really relate to ...

because i'm going on 4 days now of not acting on strong SI urges.

sore, broken, shaky, drained.

sore/exhausted, lost, weary.

I didn't SI during a situation where I would have in the past.

i feel like i need to say everything to you now, and i don't know where to begin. please wait for me. i've waited so long to hear those words from you, please be okay if all i have for now is silence. i don't know what to do now, what to say, if i should even say anything. but if i do stay silent, ...

confused/surprised, sad, drained.

tired, drained, sore, overwhelmed.

i'm always looking for free resources like this... thank you for sharing!

isolated, helpless, invisible...