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embarrassing, alone/lonely, cold, su-triggered, ashamed/guilty.

Good music is definitely always on my list of good things.

As are good books, good films, etc etc.

Paranoid thinking is one of my biggest issues, so I'm not sure exactly how good of advice I have, but I wanted to write to say I definitely relate. Like the above replies mention, one of the biggest things that help me are "checking out" the thoughts somewhere outside of myself -- when it can still ...

sore/sick
depressed/triggered

-Relax to music until I can take meds
-Take pain meds, shower
-If someone calls/IMs, answer & don't cover up how I'm feeling
-Do research/distract self on computer
-Try to make things comfortable

weak, disappointing, sore, unable...

I hope this year has the good things that the last year lacked...

Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Yes, Somewhere between trying to not relapse/trying to stop. If so what is your motivation: Not wanting to go back to where I was before, physical/health reasons, doing it for others (& hopefully doing it for myself eventually). Favorite coping skills:...

Not exactly a message board so I don't know if it's what you're looking for, but if you are a member of www.livejournal.com (free to join & all that jazz) & search the interests for bipolar I know there are some great communities there ... I've also noticed communities/groups/boards on the other soc...

lonely/alone, sick, frustrated...

Unbalanced, edgy... tired & upset.

I'm so glad that the samaritans call was helpful for you -- and thank you for posting & sharing the feedback/experience on the call!

Although I know I would benefit from it/need it, I have yet to have the courage to actually ring any of the helplines. So I have no personal experiences to offer with them... I have used the samaritans e-mail-based support a handful of times. They were *very* helpful a few of those times, and once o...

(my 1st time posting in this part of the board... reading the threads here has been really helpful.) how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? ...I'd probably have added feelings of guilt. I might feel more grounded... the situations wouldn't change at all, moreso the feelings (for...

hating this feeling...

...drained, invisible, frustrated & fragile.

****SU/SI related trigs (not graphic detail though)*********** What is your secret? ...That I'm tired, that I'm tired of fighting the urges, that I'm at the end of my tether, that I feel like giving up & that I'm scared of feeling unsafe. Why is it a secret? ...I can't say it, I can't verbalize it ...

:argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: I CAN'T KEEP DEALING ON MY OWN AND I CAN'T HANDLE HAVING THE PEOPLE WHO SAY THEY LOVE ME KEEP IGNORING ME & FLAUNTING ALL THE THINGS THEY'RE DOING WITHOUT ME KEEPING THEM BEHIND! ....& I have to stop being so damned stupid for letting it bother me or for being so ...

I hope that I can make it past this... I hope that I can say what I need to say to someone I care about...