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how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? would give me a different pain to focus on in the short term, one that feels more manageable. would not change anything in the long term, or the situation causing the feelings. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it ...

drained, sick, urgy, anxious.

-take meds as scheduled.
-let myself nap if i need to.
-distract with music, internet, books.
-consider calling old therapist or making similar contact.
-long shower.

*to no longer be dealing with illnesses & chronic pain.
*to feel confident & comfortable again.
*to be able to not need day jobs & work with what i love.
*to be with someone i love & also have the relationship be a healthy one.

One theme I seemed to see mentioned a few times was that it was fairly spontaneous and you probably wouldn't have SIed if you had thought about it for long enough. Is that right? *nods* i think that is the case -- i've had a lot of urges tonight, and re-reading this after & other b&a type things se...

--sick/tired/sore
--urgy/triggered
--depressed/useless
--lonely/left out

.....

--take meds as scheduled
--find productive things to do that don't require too much physical exertion.
--use music for distraction.
--work on e-mails/contacting people.

-seeing my friends create amazing works of art, and wanting to be there to be a part of that.
-being inspired to create as well.

panicky/distressed

i'm grateful for the people here on the bus boards.

worried/triggered

-wondering what will happen next & thinking it might be something better/something good.

-finding pleasure & happiness in day to day things (music, etc).

sore/tired, depressed, lonely.

--Try to take meds as scheduled.
--Rest & distract with music/films.
--Think about who I could contact/talk to.
--Let self go to bed early/earlier.

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes, I did as best as I could with what I have here at least. what had happened just before? I had read something that upset me that someone who isn't in my life anymore wrote... I was also here alone instead of going ...

Seeing the link above reminded me to look in the sourcebook for the thread I was thinking of before, I think this is it -- http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=17098&sid=ca43e38b7c0e433a2c7e289737a5531a . Looking through the sourcebook again it seems like there's a lot of threads that could appl...