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2nd post -- lily, you are not weak. trying to work things out, trying to fight the urges, even just the act of posting -- all of that shows strength. & you really have been putting a lot of work into trying with these things, i see that. no matter how hard it is to believe, you are not worthless, a ...

i'm useless, a waste, a letdown. i'm disappearing from everyone & everything i care about, so why does it even matter if i self destruct? i can't get past things i should have accepted long ago & it's pathetic. all i can think about is them & the self destructive urges. why am i so weak?!?

disappointing, triggered, alone, tired.

i loved reading this thread, thank you for sharing all these ideas. :) the temporary tattoo reminded me of a reward i used to use -- getting a henna tattoo kit & making a henna tattoo of something that was meaningful to me. they usually would fade between 2-4 weeks at a time, so i would put them on ...

--sore --upset/triggered --panicky/edgy --depressed/unsafe *make things as comfortable as possible--take meds. *keep music/dvds on in background for distraction. *stay away from the things that are triggering right now. *work on current issues/thoughts while still keeping something comforting around...

triggered/urgy, upset, alone/worthless, sore/sick, empty...

i'm worried about dealing with the next few weeks...

right now, i'm trying because i was reminded by someone how much things got better for them after years of hanging on & surviving, and that has given me some hope & optimism for the future--i admire where they are at now so much, i had forgotten how long it took for them to get there. ....& i want t...

tired/sick, ashamed, sad.

the other responses all have great advice, a lot of it i use as well. one coping skill that i seem to use when in the company of others is the "delaying" thought--it's in the vast list of coping strategies post here--where the thought is, "ok, i won't si for *so & so amount of time*." & then going b...

i was able to wait out the urges.

sick/disappointing/depressed/lonely

thank you for your reply... :star: i was able to beat the initial urges, and did for about 24 hours or so, until i gave in at that point... so i guess i was able to delay at least. that does make sense, i'll definitely save the before as a file as a reminder to think on what works/what doesn't. than...

i was able to make a call that might lead to therapy referrals.

frustrated, tired, alone, unimportant.

I made a call to get referrals for therapy/help.

lonely, useless, disappointed/disappointing, sore, urgy/triggered.